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when i stare at the computer, its like i've forgotten everything.
my mind is blank and lost for words to press on the keyboard.
gah!

looking at the thousands of pictures in my computer,
realized that i have changed, tre.men.dous.ly
changes i see, changes...

so.... i left at insecurites.
somehow i dont wish to continue it.
lets talk happy. (:

its funny, its interesting, its weird, its a wonder...
why somehow i make my birthday a big deal.
damn right it is, but i dont ask for much.
not much at least, i think.

well well, oh this is a must tell.
after years, no i mean years..
i followed daddy to the fish shop, to get ping ping food.
walking in, i thought about how about guppi's in my room again.
it's been sometime so why not?
note: my guppi's never live long because they always freeze to death. (:
anyhoo, thats not the point.

n. b. i was wearing home clothes, hair tied up.
point is......
i was walking around the shop, mind you the shop is a run down apek shop, pretty fugly.
so i was squating and playing with the hamsters and then when i decided to get up,
this man, my dad's age? indian bugger came up to me, pointing at this packet of "only he knows what", asked
"how much is this?" while pointing at the price tag.
i read, rm4.
but i replied, "i dont know" giving him this what-the-flimsy-stare.
common, i do not look like the chinese man's daughter right no?
or do i look like an indonesian maid working there?
sigh, this tan not doing good with indian my fathers age men.
hahaha...
so yeah, i should shoot men like that!
duh, obvious he wanted to talk to me.
i straight walked to daddy and told him what happened.
i mean common,
do i look like im working there?????
doesnt make sense to me. bleh!
enough about old indian men trying to start conversation.

moving on...
remember the writings on my wall?
remember my room?
well, too many.. mummy and daddy taught them well.
no writing on the walls.
i think i've grown now.
my walls have really sweet and sour memories.
but its high time i painted it orange and yellow. :)
you know what i mean.
will take pictures of the latest before it goes back to how it should be.

i love my friends.
they make me happy.
very happy.

p/s: i need a make over for my room.