Tuesday, January 31, 2006

so chinese chinese........

yeah my clogs.
abit the mafan to walk in it la.
its impossible to walk fast for a long time.
ya feet will hurt.
ouch!

bullshit

he never bothered to text.he never!
i actually called to say i missed him.
but i didnt get to say what i wanted too.
looks like if it isn't me,he will never!
he?lets not go there.
maybe he was never meant to be.
maybe its just like that.
now why do i bother so much when he doesnt?
why do i care?is this what you call love?
is karma striking now?
if so,it was he who i loved.
bla,im not bothered.
why should i be when he isnt?
why should i care when he doesnt?
why should i when he..........!
this is bullshit.
plain,pure.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

kong si kong si kong si ni ya!






IT IS CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!

as usual

yay,im happy.
WHY???????
1) i shopped with my bestie today.
2) i got myself emporio armani's city glam for her.
3) oh its chinese new year so i bought clogs.so chinese!eh,not the real ching chong type ya!
4) and this arizali pink pants.dee says i look good in it. =)
5) i splurged.oh,we had a free shot from emporio armani.
6) my bestie and i looked so gorg.no doubt!

Friday, January 27, 2006

i'll be......................

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest LOVE of your life

dong dong chang.......



i likey when it flutters its eyes.
it thrilled me.
im easily fascinated with it.
oh so cute``


shessh man!

{im reaching,just a few more meters,be patient,yes i know its freaking hot}
argh!i hate fridays.
the thought of how the hell am i going to go home after school kills me softly.
i dont need no tan by sunbathing in langkawi or pd.i get it ere.just waiting for a cab.
or the classic on by walking home.
can you imagine me,ME,me walking home?
ah,fret it!
its a friday.my plans for tonite?
stay home and rot?good one!

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

teee weee leeee heeee

cant touch this.
though its tempted to shake.
bla.
i bring candy everywhere i go.
just shake it off.
sorry,it aint nobody's.
candy cane * yum yum *

la la la *bleh*

i enjoy telling people what i realise.
i likey likey.
so here's what i just realised.
i was reading a few people's blog just a moment ago and it striked me that sometimes when people read my blog they are freaking clueless too!
cos while i was reading,i didnt know head or tail about what i was reading.
its like reading a book without a title and author.
reading the last page and then the first.
got me?
but this is what makes you wanna read my blog more.
i know.mine is interesting. =)
i love praising myself.full of it.
im a firefly.
blur?go figure.
its when you apply all this literary devices in your life.
blur?drop it.
im still a firefly!

the question is.........................


oh-so-yum!

luscious.

Friday, January 20, 2006

pain lor....

alright,my mouth is starting to hurt cos i just started using my rubberbands again.
its been two years and eight months using this braces.
time flies.it was only back then when i was in form 2 when i did the extraction and bla.
hmm,my mouth hurts! =(
but im going to be a good girl and use my rubberbands so that my teeth would move faster.
i think i wasted 8 months all in all.if i actually went for regular appointments,i'd be done by now.
i hope it doesnt reach three years!im wanting to take it out before my seventeen b'day.
lets hope!hehehe.owh well,boo you then!
i'll have a perfect smile and you wont.
HAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
pain talking............ =S

why do we never know what we got till its gone,
how could i carry on, the day you went away?

NOTICE

dont mess with kyle because he is mine.
we may not be together now BUT
he is going to be my husband.
so............DONT MESS!


HAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAH!
kyle's loving this notice.

i know you are. *wink*
oh happy day.

slap me?

i just realised that im a freaking sensitive person.
can u imagine.16 years living and now realising it?
*sigh* i still feel like apart of me is there.
with that person.he is having it.keeping it.
i felt like crap when i just realised something!
im such a jealous pot.you can never imagine.
this is not the jealousy when you see your friend having a dior handbag.
its the jealousy which involves "the guy" and another biatch.
argh!you get it?just pretend like you do.
i love assuming.
ASSUME= making an ASS of U and ME!
im sorry but im just too good at it.
see,below that happy smile this is me.
a sensitive,cry baby,jealous pot.
oh well,you can never imagine.......................................................

its killing me softly......

i wanna play pool.
im dying to play pool.
but i dont know who to play pool with.
argh,it sucks!
but i still wanna play pool.
how i wish my girlfriends took up pool with me!
*sobs*

baba.......i wanna play!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

memoirs

quoted
saturday december 3rd 2005
*my friday*
"eh kyle still loves me la.cos he also fat.so we together gether fat!SOT!"

i likey it......


owh this chocolate is freaking nice.
its from japan.
thanks jo!
its one of the best so far. =)
its so nice.
pure milk chocolate with a lil dark chocolate quoting on the top.
its yum yum!
and i mean YUM YUM.
*licks lips*

if i wanted to make a difference,i would sleep.

if you really wanted to make a difference,you would read a book to a child.

sounds stupid?yet so true.

here are a few quotes i collected today.
i love collecting quotes and verses. =)
yeah you should know this about me.

*sleeping is not a crime,infact it can be a sublime
*someone else's time is a terrible thing to waste
*he who excuses himself accuses himself
*look for the beauty,and you will see it
*the most wasted day is one which we have not laughed
*friends are the spice of life

.................. =)

rite,i was not all that "ding-a-dong" after all.
bla,just drop your comment at the bottom of my page.
scroll down ayte.hahaha!
err,just realised that im still very blur on the comp.
but im learning,no doubt! =)

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

ops.

does kelly clarkson's "because of you" remind you of me?
deng,the lyrics hurts you know.
it was a big slap across my face.
poor me.*sobs*
i didnt want too but yeah i did.
bla,screw it.im moving on with life.

because of me,you never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of me,you learned to play on the safe side so you wont get hurt
because of me,you find it hard to trust not only yourself but everyone around you
because of me,you dont know how to let anyone else in
because of me,you are ashamed of life
because of me,you are afraid?

oh shesssh,did it hurt that bad hun?
im sorry but im sure you had a good time on the 16th of january. *wink*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHH!!!

its good you know.... =)

walking under the heavy rain with him and thinking that we were walking under the hot blazing sun is sure to be a lasting memory.

Sunday, January 15, 2006

memoirs

she cries with me too

we love doing this.

we complete each other

the best friends.


oh-my-irene!

ms read's delicious cafe with the birthday girl,marcia aka nenek ku.
with johan after such a long time.its such a nice picture.
delaine made my hair like that.argh,i look sweet.i know. =)

deng girl,its back!

period blues.....OUCH!it hurts so bad. =(

Friday, January 13, 2006

its one of THOSE days...

life is like a box of chocolates.
the contents aint the same.

too bad if you get the white chocolate.
my bad.

its like this,
i know i have everything i need.
i cant seem to find something i want.
but still it doesnt seem like im happy.
its like there is a missing thing.
i cant find it.i've been searching high and low.
its like my life is not complete.
there is a missing jigsaw puzzle.
but i still cant find it!
the feeling aint good.
i am only happy when im with my friends.
i hardly see my family.
its like everyone is so busy.
everyone has their own life to deal with,
own things to do,own business to mind.
but,......but........
i wish this was a dream.
but......but..............
i wish i wouldn't feel this way.
but.........but.......
i wish things would be like how it use to
but....but.........
i wish i never felt this way
but.....but........

this is reality,i am feeling this way!

try reading.

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yeah typing error.
good way to vent anger

bla bla bla

yeah ignore.its healthy living.
im not hoping.i live today as if..........
why does it have to be this....?
i am not hungry.thats weird!
wakaka,i fake it.
im so good at it.you know it.
its obvious.i let the whole world know.
argh,fret it!

okay lets get it straight.
ignore.you know what?
ya lost.you had me,you lost me.
im done now.forget it.
move b***h,get out the way.
I SAID MOVE!

likey by me =)

if everyday could be breezy as that day.......i wish!

happy faces

THE LEWIS
.my picture perfect.

*sigh*

its simple.
if you dont want too,then just say so.
giving excuses are lame.
find a new one or drop this.
this was so yesterday.
get a clue?go figure.
get to the point la.
im sick of it.
i rest my case.
i lay it down.if this makes you happy.
by all means.

.......................................................and im desperate for you.

but of course............

thank you for the comments.
i know im beautiful.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

speak english?go figure!

when impossibilities have been eliminated,
whatever remains,
no matter how improbable,
is POSSIBLE!


perpetual optimism is a force multiplier.


impossible is a word only to be found in the dictionary for fools.


belief creates the actual fact.


let obstacles become great adventures.

its a sweet crime

i miss someone..........
oh,its a crime to me.
but a sweet one.
*wink*

Monday, January 09, 2006

movies movies movies

movies i really want to catch

  1. cheaper by the dozen 2
  2. memoirs of a geisha
  3. in her shoes
  4. da vincci's code
  5. elizabethtown

read up if you are ONLY really bored

today is monday.
its the eve for hari raya haji.
my school took off.
i woke up at 9.30.
and i was suppose to book an appointment for my facial.
i called up but it was fully booked.
so its wednesday,4.30.
i still haven't gotten nenek's present.
i have no idea when im going to get it.
delaine is coming by anytime now.
we are going for lunch.
thank god for her.
i wanted to go suprise kyle today but figure it would just be wrong.
what if he doesnt let me in?hahahahah!
irene and her genius brains and ideas.
owh well,i thank god for delaine again.
phew,what i'd do without her?
i'd still live for sure.

hahahhaha!
err,tomorrow is a public holiday.
as usual the lewis plans is;wake up late,go for lunch,sleep.
boring eh!i know.its not like i can do much about it.
i've been listenin to hillsongs,paradise,don moen's,planet shakers.
im feeling so fresh because i just had my bath.
but the lotion i put on my body is so sticky icky!bleh*
the smell is nice though.its ralph lauren's style.
you see,when irene is bored she ends up telling the world whats it like.
hmmmm,no harm done!
bla bla........
i've been trying to upload my penang trip pictures but blogspot isn't letting me do so.argh!!!

Sunday, January 08, 2006

bullshit!

honestly,crying doesnt get you anywhere.
the hardest part of all is to just put the person you love out of your life for the time being.
and it IS THE F**KING HARDEST THING TO DO!
i've done it a few times.and it comes down to this,i have to do it AGAIN!
and as much as i dont want it to bother it still does.
listenin to songs he once sang is just asking,"can you get my dead bed ready a bit more earlier?"
banging on the keyboard yes in a way releases your tension.
but making noise at this hour is not a very nice thing to do as there is people sleeping in the house.
telling everybody what happened isn't a very nice thing to say as well.
and getting a,"huh?why?what happened?" also makes you feel like crap.
listenin to christian music just makes you feel a little one kind.
but its a very nice thing to do.
argh,this is so full of shit!

i hope i get over this fast and get back on track with life.
saturate me,call me deeper,at your throne i will lay down.
yeah its a nice song indeed. =)
have you realised that when you put god in your life and when you make him primary,he makes you primary too?i never use to seek god.till today i still take him for granted.i take whatever he gives me for granted.i never bother puting him in my life when im happy.i only seek of him when im sad,lonely or my usual,when i've miss placed something.i once put god first but then i back slided.and again and again.but now he's back in my life.im so happy.for god said,those who are weary come to me and i shall give you peace. =) im feeling like never before again.

jesus,you are my bestfriend.you will ALWAYS be!

yup yup yup!

be wise as the serpent,be humble as the servant.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

sot KA?

lala..............................*
sunday school begins tomorrow.
lets just say im praying real hard that i'd get a new teacher.
cos i happen to know who is teaching me this year already!
shesssh,........!
today was first accounts tuition class.not bad at all!
we managed to finish the 1st bab.
as usual,i was so friggin slow but heck,i got it all!
i think?!hahahhahahhahaa....................
i cried an ocean last nite and everybody needed to travel by ships!
there were really rough tides.shesh!
thank god i knew how to swim.
delaine wrote me a letter.it was real sweet of her.
guess i'd never be able to find anyone to replace her.im hoping!LOL. ;)
monday and tuesday is off.wee!its so interesting,i haven't started lessons in school when everybody else i think has started already.i've got fantastic teachers eh!tell me about it.
there never happens to be a day when i go to school and dont laugh.
oh,we had to use our interact uniforms on friday.
guess what?we all put on weight!thats amazing!
after all,we're still growing kids. ;)
does everyday have to end in a screwed up way?
or is it just mine?

Friday, January 06, 2006

my highlight.....

the whole of today has been all about god,christ,christian music.
the whole time in school the fei-T's were singing christian music.
oh trust me,its so so soothing.
i've been listening to it the whole day too.
paradise adore album is a blast off album.
its way better than any other albums i've heard. =)
its really cool you know when all your friends are into it.
wow,i thank god for them!
its just hard to express this in words.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

play`

listening to slow good music and looking at the christmas party pictures.
stop.pause.rewind.
its memories. =)

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

is this what i have to do?

today has been real weird for me.
its eating into me.
should i drop economics?
i dislike the sub.
i have NO interest.
i just cant take it!
gee,making decisions in life aint an easy thing to do.
it just kinda hit me. =S
oh well,siting in the van on the way to school made me feel like barfing!
my day had a bad start off BUT after seeing my friends,woah it was like i was on estacy!
the feeling is good.its too good to be true.
i love ya'll babes!

bam,boom,aiyoh!

second day of school
im still finding it hard to sleep early at night.
we didnt do any learning in class today.
my bm teacher came in class but she didnt teach.JOY!
my friends and i were doing our usuals;talk,laugh,shout,joke,yell.
its really been no diffrence even though we're 17!
we happen to still act like how we first entered form 3.haha!
i was only suppose to take an hour sleep in the afternoon,but i ended up taking more than that!

"fei-T marcia will be turning 17 on the 14th of january".

is there something called a "farting disorder"??
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA...ops!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

manicure anyone?

i got my nails done for christmas.
i likey it. =)
i paid rm36 for it.not bad lo!

facts!

  • christmas was havoc.its had its up's and as well its down's!
  • first time irene cleaning up a vomit done by ashwin. =S
  • new year wasn't all that big for me.
  • celebrating new year with my family was ok only.not that bad.
  • i didnt get my tag.*santa oh santa,why didnt you put me in your good list?* SOB!
  • instead i got a guess watch.loving it as much.
  • school has begun.back to reality,its SPM.
  • the motto of the year,"SHUT UP AND STAY SINGLE"!

ops.

oh my.
its been ages.
you know me. =S
im back to civilization.
its reality check.
school begins.
then comes the blues. =S
shessh,its weird being the seniors in school.
i still feel like in form 4.
maybe its the way we act.
oh,stepping in school with dee today was ever weird.
the way we act doesnt seem like we're school girlies. =S
seeing my fei-T's is just oh-so-wonderful.