damnation.

i wish my computer never went busted.
but yeah,it always fails on my family.
*sigh*

so this time around,i think i learnt my lesson.
a deng lesson for life.
for being lazy,which is a sin this is what i get.
all my pictures in my computer,GONE.
yes,i mean ALL.
thousands and thousands of memories.
i am only left with "fei-T's pangkor trip" folder.
thank God not EVERYTHING left moi.

i deserve this.i know i do.
why?

mom : please save all the pictures in the cd's i brought back.there is more than enough cd's.
moi : yeah,i will.
mom : label them also okay.
moi : yeah okay okay.

BUT I NEVER DID. :(

lessonS learnt.

1. save all pictures taken in a cd
2. save all college stuff in a pendrive.

so gone with the wind,my pictures.

rest in peace. 07'

last night.....

the first part.
THE TIME HAS COME.
have you ever rushed through everything just to meet a friend?
the feeling you get when you're rushing through?
how you want to get things done fast so you wouldnt be late to see your friend?

then comes the second part.
THE JOURNEY.
you dont want to make your friend wait.
so you do brisk walking.
or you sprint.
or maybe you know your friend will wait for you.
so you take your time.
its late.its dark.
but you aren't afraid.
thats weird.
but you know your friend is with you.

thirdly.
THE RENDEZVOUS.
you see your friend,at last.
you could have seen your friend anywhere.
but you chose that place.
it was your idea.
brilliant.
it is so peaceful.
you feel secured.
you know your friend is with you,in you.

the last part.
THE DEPART.
time is running out.
its getting late and you have to go.
so you make a move.
you return home.
happy that you met your friend.
what a blast.

the first date with God.
i walked for him.

you never know the feeling till you experienced it for yourself.

one word.
AMAZING

silence is when God is speaking to you. (:

i never liked the silence.
i always wanted to break it.
i have a reason to be quiet now.
i am in love with the silence. (:

simplified

i knew this girl from way back.

her life was more than the ordinary.
with nothing much to worry about.
yet the smallest things that went wrong,
she'd make sure it didn't affect her.
not one bit.not at all.

she use to tell her loved ones,
the very tiny thing that went wrong.
what more the uncalled for arguments?

she believed that there was a reason.
the reason why God made friends.
the reason why God made friends for her.

but...
when does a story have a perfect ending?
why does it even have to end?
how did everything turn out like this?
who did this to her?

she went through alot.
alot of pain.
she was hurt.
but she didnt utter a word about it.
she kept it to herself.

she is God's child.
and the beauty of it,
she believes there is a reason to everything.
maybe God has a bigger plan.
for her.

fact.for.the.soul

i was watching animal planet this morning.
and i learned something new.

back in school,...
teachers taught us that the ONLY mammal which lays eggs are the platypus.
we,malaysian students only grew up thinking that platypus is the ONLY mammal that lays eggs.
often when we used do sit for a test,they loved asking this question.
back then i remember they did.

what they didnt know is this...
echidna,also known as spiny anteaters are mammals that lays eggs too!
these creature is only found in australia and new guinea.

i love learning new things.
it fascinates me.
gives me thrills too!

So,there you have it.
i learnt something new today. :)
so did you!

simple.plan - Crazy

the first time i heard this song was at my confirmation camp.
and thats the first time i knew what crazy meant.

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They wont stop 'til they've reached their dreams

With Giant pills and surgery
Photoshop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's world war III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
Money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

is everybody going crazy?
is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich *guys* driving big SUV's
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something

something is wrong
Is everybody going Crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong....

it makes sense after all

.mine.

i told this someone "i got this from birkenstock,its my papillio.nice?"

then i got a sarcastic reply, "oh it must be a thousand la."

i said, "no,its rm..."

then this someone said, "yeah i actually dont know what is birkenstock,so i banged only."

so....there you have it.

it is mine. :)

my papillio

my . night

tonight,i performed for my loved ones.
they sat and stood watching me.
everybody enjoyed it.
they all claped and cheered for me.
at some point,they even laughed.
maybe i looked really funny singing.
i was singing like no one was watching.
i sang till my heart was happy,again.

alot of people dont see this.
the other side of me.

singing made me happy.
like never before.
sugar rush.

the happiness i felt singing "i want to break free", "addicted", and "crazy"..........
i cant describe it in words.

im happy now................
at least i entertained them and made them laugh
knowing that....i smile,will smile and am smiling

my.WEIRD.dream

it went something like this................

i was in college,lecture.
then all of a sudden i was in this jungle.
this jungle had a lot of dead bodies.
in this jungle there was a club,feng tau.
then i was in the toilet in the jungle.
the club got raided.
there were police everywhere.
i was waiting in the toilet.
then i got bored.
so i was walking around this jungle-ly place.
i could only walk on wodden planks.
there was water all around.
deep water.
then i went back to the toilet.
and waited.
the police passed the toilet.
now the raid was over.
the lights were turned on.
i was in a cinema watching a movie.

wait,i myself dont get it.
i was staring in the movie and i was watching the movie?
way cool.

so i ate ham and bread before i slept.
is that the effects?

something to shout about.

i got my birkentstock`s papillio.
its got cheeries on it. *yum*
i am so gay...........................

this feels better than telling whats on your "other mind".

life goes on....

life is not over.
in fact,it just begun again.

many a times we are never positive.
especially when something "not so good" happens.
or rather when something 'bad' happens.

the hardest thing to do is to look at it in a positive way.
or to even ignore it.

here's the thing.
i am looking at the bright side of things.
i am positive. :)

why?
because there is nothing my God cannot do!

new.thing

i got a new radio player in my room now.
this is satisfaction.

i get to listen to my cd's,once again.
the one's i used to listen to ions ago.
so MUCH of memories.

the kiddy memories.
how can i run away from that side of me?
i am stuck in it.
or she is stuck in me.
either way,we ARE stuck together!

the first cd i put in the player was the s club seven cd.
i heard "bring it all back" and it brought back memories.
my friends and i danced to that song.
years ago that was,......

listening to songs that i used to listen too when i was a kido?
i listen to them again and smile.

i am indeed happy with my new radio player. :)

the after college thingy.

somehow i want to tell the world about my life
and what i do every day,hour,minute,second
and then somehow i dont want to tell.
boo,its my secret.
YES,im fickle minded!
dont cross that line.

sometimes i just cant believe myself.
i mean fussing over a thing that isn't worth my time and breath?
boy oh boy,someone has got to 'teach' me on what to fuss about.
i fuss A LOT!
then you ask why do i bother fussing?
garn!

everyone talking about life.
this and that.
shouldn't mention the fact that it is near to perfection,when will it ever be?
then again,i need some fun and games.
i want the thrills.bleh!

i ask for too much,so much.
then i dont get it.
nyeh nyeh. *its been sometime*

i believe this is heaven to me.
wait,you feel like heaven when you know you've got your family.
pure bliss. :)

the interesting part,....
i didnt go out on saturday!
i was HOME the whole day.
yes,thats right! - i love saying it.

then i realised that when i thought my friends could help me get my mind off things and be there for me and yade yade the whole works,i forgot to think about my 'other' friend,GOD.
this friend of mine is there for me ALL THE TIME.
i need not make any appointment,cancellation,bla bla!
so yeah,i pulled through saturday by having an enjoyable time with *him*
uh huh,THERE IS NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO! :)

so........
i mentioned i wanted to break free?
"God knows i want to break free and there is nothing my God cannot do for me."
ah,my God is so terror merror.I LIKE!

"HAPPY ARE THOSE WHO DO NOT SEE YET STILL BELIEVE"

i quote philipians 4:13
"there is nothing i cannot do in the one who strenghtens me."
- my all time favourite verse

i.want

i want.........to sail away

here is the thing.

i want to go to 'my never ever land'.

there the pigs fly.

and i can play with the pigs in the mud.

the mud doesnt stink and i can roll in it with them pigs.

the pigs that i love.

i want to sail away......to MY never ever land

i want it that bad!

I WILL KEEP HOLDING ON........

jeng jeng jeng jenggggggg!

two un-INVITED visitors dropped by my house today.

the.snake

there was a baby snake it my house.
it left its dead skin in one room.
it went in to another room.
the fire and rescue team came.
they caught it.
its gone.

the.cat

a cat came running from the back gate.
it passed BJ and BJ made no sound.
it looked like a rabbit somehow.
in my eyes,it was hopping.
it went into the kitchen.
out through the kitchen door.
its gone.

i think God is showing me a sign.
today hasn't gone right after all.

prediction 1

the snake symbolizes bad.the cat symbolizes good.
in life,there is always the bad and good in it and it is up to you on how you want to handle it.you want to make a mess out of yourself when something bad happens or you want to be positive all the way through whatever bad you might be experiencing.on the other hand,good things do come around too.at the end,its up to you if you want to make the good thing last or chase it away and pretend nothing good happens in your life.

prediction 2

the snake and the cat just decided to pop in my house because the lewis always welcomes people.wait,and animals too!we never chase them away and we always welcome them with open hands.

prediction 3

the weather wasn't so good.the snake decided that we could shelter it for a few days.on the other hand,the cat passed through my house because the weather was too hot and it needed some fresh air.

stupid predictions,only i like to come up with....

in both the scenes, i screamed.
like it was my birthday

its a month to my birthday!

the.day

it never goes wrong even though you only put even 3 fei-T's together.

the noise we make,

the attention we get,

the stunts we do,

the tantrums we throw,

everything stays the same WHEN

we are reunited.

my foot obession,i like.

butterflies to remind us of this day.we painted it for each other.

imagine us having fun.

i will never forget,how we sat together and painted the pretty butterflies.

i will never forget,how we ate and made so much noise in the hot dogS shop.

i will never forget,how we just sat and talked and talked and talked.

i will never forget,how we walked around the shops and made fun of whatever we could.

i will never forget,my fei-T's.

what i cant reveal is how we looked. :)

la.la

tomorrow is my big day.

my VERY big day.

i need my beauty sleep for it.

shh,the beauty of having a bestie.

MY feeeeeeT!

i L.O.V.E my mutated toes.
could not ask for more.

.his.burpday.

sometimes its just nice to be out of the ordinary and be the EXTRAordinary person that i am.

* letters for the next six months would keep him thinking of me everyday.
* a 3D jigsaw puzzle globe would always remind that he can travel the world anytime.
* a model of a BMW 3 series would also remind him that dreams do come true and he can get it before he turns a year older.

isn't that just thoughtful?
i know it is.

the best part is when you find out that he shows it off to the world.
it is well paid off.
dont you think?!

how to 'THINK' outside the box

which of the following is unlike the rest?

1. thirty-one
2. thirteen
3. one third

miss.understood

my imaginary friend.

lucas scott,early 20's
currently - marketing director,advertising company.
personality traits - family orientated,loves travelling,enjoys outdoor activities,loves exotic food,musically talented.
interested - searching for a potential partner.

i enjoy human communication.

this on perception actually makes you learn alot about us human.
gee man,its tough to study us.
we complicated souls.

I SAY..
but hey,this is life right?
it wasnt promised a beautiful journey.

don`t let it .out.

there is a "new small talk" going on in my college.
oh hush,its about moi.
okay,so lets drop it here.

i quote myself YET again,
"the world is going to talk,so i am giving ME for them to ramble on about"

you never took the time to know me.
so dont go there.

its so petty,you got to excuse them.
besides that studies have been pretty interesting.

oh and btw,my GOD is so good to me! :)
so about that,I AM LOVING IT.

this month has got quite a number of highlights for me that would make it a good month.
for one,EASTER is in a matter of days.

talking about it.
someone told me something.
something that i can do to be the best.

"this good friday,burry whatever that is difficult for you to do.
and on easter,rise with jesus."

so,life has been great actually!
i cant wait for this week to end.
holy thursday,good friday,easter vigil.
no,its not that i can start eating meat again and im happy about it.
its just that i know i will be resurrected with jesus again!

i could not ask for more..............
i am not crossing the line

and they call it puppy love....

so i was in the toilet having my bath.
and i was thinking about LOVE.
i know what a place to even let your brain think about it.
BUT no,there were no memories in the toilet,NOTHING...

so i stood there and LOVE was running through my mind.
and everything everyone said about it.

"love is patient,love is kind....."

"love is a game"

"agape love"

"eros love?"

and the beat goes on....................

THEN,as usual.

this whole "love is blind" just kept on playing in my head.
i mean why do people even say that?
okay,one too many reasons that is pretty obvious.
all of a sudden this pops into my head.
and this is originally MINE..

"LOVE IS BLIND,SPEAK LOUDER"

now now,go figure.

baby,im back!

looks like the world missed out on ALOT about me.
then again,the surface will just YET again give you a gist about whats going on.

its raining.
i meant it is flipping raining everything!
the saying "off your computer or it will get struck by lightning" just doesn't bother me one bit.
BJ is siting near my leg.awww,too cute.
thats because old man is scared of the thunder and lightning.

anyway........i want to say

i bought one tree hill season 4 and i've watched 9 episode's.
i am saving the other 3 episodes but i know i'll finish it and fuss about when the rest is coming out in dvd copy.

reminder : i do NOT download it from the internet because i do not like watching it from a computer because its small even though its a big screen for a computer.i prefer my tv where i blast the sound and sing along to "i dont wanna be" and rewind whatever i didnt get or whatever quotes i want to take.i like to hog the couch,stretch my legs and stare at baby lucas! :)

alrite,this computer has been busted one too many times.
i dont want to jinx it and not get to use it again though.
oh well,i still love my computer anyway,anyhow.

so i miss my fei-T's so much that.....its just that!
how i wish we were all in the same college.
gee,i pity the lecturers.

well well.life has been pretty great!
its holy week.
i shall always stay positive....my jesus lives in moi!

no,i am not a heart breaker.i am just being what you want me to be.
NO,I AM SERIOUS!

GOT IT YEAH?