friday.night

i ran the race.
i give up.
i give up.
i am out of breath.
i am out of water.
i just give up.

....enough of bullshit.

see how long i can take this?
i dont think i can any longer.

i give up.
i JUST give up.

.....its too late,tonight
to drive the pass out
one love?

lala.

i want to hang on the moon and pick stars.
i will bring my pail to put all the plenty many stars in it.

i want to sail in never ever land.
i will be the only one in the sampan.
that boy?
i dont bother.
my pigrene?
she is with me.

.....i just want out

i want to reach the peak.

besides the point, my life has been stagnant.
i want to be happy, i want to reach the peak.
i miss being happy and everything about it.

i blur through out the day.
i am lost in every conversation.
i blur so easily.

you speak, i can only hear.
i cant seem to listen.

life has been boring.
i want to.
i want to reach.
i want to reach the.
i want to reach the peak.

i am so darn sick of my boring life.
i fuss so much.

i wish i never left school.
those use to be fun.
i was a kid.
i want to be a kid.

my life is a DUMB routine.
i had following it.
can i be a rebel?

i want my car!

SAY TAK NAK TO ROUNTINED LIFE! :)

there's got to be a better way....

so live your life as if everyday is gonna be your last! - irene, please start telling yourself.

sunday morning

i look at my nails.
i got it done yesterday.
looking beautiful now.
so while getting my nails done.

conversation took place.
manicurist doing my nails: [in cantonese] she wants to re-paint her toe nails.

manicurist who did my nails last week: [in cantonese] why? did it chip alot?

manicurist doing my nails: [in cantonese] i dont know. i dont think so.

manicurist who did my nails last week: [in cantonese] okay.

[in my heart] irene! why do you want to re-paint it? the only damage on your toes is on the mama toe. and that is also a 'small' chip in the corner.

me: err,i dont think i'd like to do my toes.
manicurist doing my nails: why?
me: i am running out of time. [this i must say i thought extremely fast]

okay,so they thought i didnt understand.
but then they realised i kept looking at them.
jeng,they spoke in mandarin!
okay,i lost then.
but these is one of the pro's.
malay looking chindian girl with a chinese mother. :)

weekend-ers!

malay looking chindian girl speaking chinese.
-my lecturer called me that.

singing beyond's "hai kuo tian kong" with my kor kor.
the best i ever had after his work.

fact.
kimm is overweight.
bj is one eye blind.
ping ping is old.

i still love the lewis and all the animals in the household.
:)

listening : beyond - hai kuo tian kong, zhen de ai ni

my random, most.

i fried sausage.

i made it have blister.

painful.

my cake.

i wanted a chocolate indulgence.

i am a rabbit.

can you see my ears and nose?

i was in the cinema.

and the film tore before my eyes.

i watched a torn film.

i am on top.

i mean mine.

because i bought it first.

i dont want a lot of rice.

there you go.

i was suppose to draw pink panther.

can you see the butterfly?

i believe in angels. i see.

listening - ABBA, i have a dream

the song,beautiful girls by jojo.
thats right.
i feel like shouting out verse three.
the last 3 lines, even LOUDER.
singing it,wouldnt send the message across.
sometimes I need to do out of the ordinary.

thats that.

my nail polish is chipping.
its barely even a week since i got it done.
looks like manicure is calling me.
my toe nails doesnt look super pretty.
my toe nails are breaking.
sigh.
i give up.

thats that.

one assignment/presentation down.
another assignment to go.
and an event to go too.
then the finals.
and SAYONARA!

thats that.

i am getting sick of guys.
not all.
but yes,them.
that species.
with that two things dangling in between.
they dont know how to handle women.
in general.
i feel like having classes.
"how-to-educate-a-boyfriend-to-be"
then again,i will be yelling non stop.
waste energy.

thats that.

i am still being very sceptical about marriage.
how i wish i was 50 now.
then i would already have a family.
and not worry what my husband might do.
oh wait,old men going to the karaoke for china dolls?
i will put an indian doll in the house.
HAHAHAHA!

thats that.

looks like i am confirm not getting a pig.
ever.

thats that.

i am trading my sorrows. . . . . .

do you know what it feels like loving someone who is in a rush to throw you away?

W.H.Y

i have been very sceptical about marriage.

situation.

there was this girl who went for a wedding reception.
she was reluctant to go but yet she went.
at the reception, she met the bride and groom.
the couple was smiling so wide, obviously its was a joyous occation.
then the girl thought about what someone told her a few weeks before.
the girl turned to look at the groom.
he was so happy and his smile didnt seem to fade away.
he was so true, the girl could tell by just looking at his face.
the girl then turned to look at the bride.
the bride was smiling, as happy as her man was.
but there was something wrong.
and only the girl knew it.
the bride's smile faded but the grooms smile lasted.
the girl knew what hurt was just by looking at the groom.
but he never knew what it was.

why is the world becoming a place that i dont wish to live in?

i fear of getting hurt that i dont even want to begin something beautiful that maybe was meant to be,forever - me

i just want to say goodbye to you and the day you went away, i was happy.

smells like my birthday.

i think and i only think i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
i just feel so urgh!
i wish it was my birthday.
...because at the mo,i am so sick of everything.

on the bright side.
lets see.
this weekend is packed with things again.
argh!
yes ANOTHER wedding to attend.
like what???
am i married here or what?
i mean,i see my parents getting dressed almost every month for a wedding.
thats that.

i want the mid term results but i am not getting it.
happy with one that i received.
and my assignment?
its pilling up already.
an event to organize.
i so dont want college now.

i am happy tomorrow is friday,my weekend!

why am i so good at yabbling?

september,packed with birthdays.
can it end tonight?

i want my birthday.
i just want to be free la.

and i want to eat.
eat eat eat eat.
and then be so bloated till i feel comfortable
and then complain.
what is the point?
we eat and the next thing we do is shit?
i mean the food i eat aint cheap!
and then it comes out as waste flushed down the toilet bowl?
why not i make a special room in my house.
my shit shrine!

okay so this made me laugh,out loud.
argh.....i am a wee bit happier now! :)

okay irene,
be positive!

basically,i want to go far far away.
to never never ever land.
there,i want to eat.
pig out.
and i want to take pigrene shopping.
i will sail in a boat on the clouds.
btw,its only pigrene,this guy and myself.
no,this guy is not my brother,father.
he is this friend.
NO,not the one who owns his own company.
different guy la!

i will bring a plastic hammer,knock the clouds that cover pigrene's eyes.

um.bre.lla

kenangan terindah.

bright smiles that will make every frown be tumbled into a smile again,

and again...

and

AGAIN!

thank you,personal trainer.

what a feeling!

cele.bri.ty*

work out.
sweat.

i dont need a PT.
i already have one.

after the months of being pestered to go.
and pestering to go.
finally.

we did something.
together.

and no more procrastinating! :)

*ting* an idea popped in his head!

phone rings at 7.30 something.

[hello....] - i cant remember what the person said.
me: mmmm...yeah?
[are you going for the wedding?]
me: no i am not. i dont want too.
[i am sitting in the toilet and i thought of what you can wear.]
me: {silence}
[you can wear a saree]
me: i dont have the blouse.
[you dont worry. just take the saree to the office. there are tailors here. we can go get it done]
me: but i dont want to go.
[please come]
me: no.
[please for my sake.]
me: no.
[PLEASE LA. I AM ASKING YOU TO FOLLOW ME RIGHT.]
me: why are you shouting at me?
[sorry. i am not shouting at you.]
me: mmmmm
[you either follow mom and dad or you ask driver to pick you up]
me: mmmmm. but i dont want to go.
[please. bye]

so one part felt bad. and the other still stuborn.
alright, 'ngo pei lei fei ci la'

i am tradding my sorrows.

something smells like the weekend. -MY weeked begins on friday

it smells like.....

wedding on saturday evening. [not sure]

facial on saturday afternoon. [confirm yes]

outing on friday. [confirm yes]

partying on friday night. [looks like it]

church on sunday morning. [duh!]

......and i hope sunday wouldnt be another lazy day

i think haagen daaz is calling me,again!

i wouldnt want to miss this,ever.

its becoming boring..spice it up,babeh!

30.08.2007

one year ago,i met this boy.

....and i will never forget how i met this boy

he was presentable that made me stare.

but the first impression we left was another thing.

my first impression was, "good-looking-player-who-thinks-he-is-all-that".

i left the first impression as "cocky-miss-i-know-im-hot".

that night,i left without saying bye.

and we only thought of him as "the guy with good charisma".

i never thought i would see him again.

but at that time when i introduced myself,

i just never thought that the boy i looked into and said

"you will never forget me,im irene"

would be the boy i would love.

and i never imagined being his.

sometimes the unexpected happens,

and puts a thousand butterflies

in your stomach

that makes you want to

scream,smile,shout

all at the same time.

we dance and it cant get better than this.

we make heads turn and then laugh about it.

he uses what seems to him as "big words" only to make me smile.

and i still love him.-

facebook.me?

i am back!

so there was this thing that people were asking me to get.
the facebook thinga ma bob it seems!
and i have never been this blur before.
i am just accepting everything from people.
and it is quite the 'leceh'.
maybe because i am still a newbie.

thats that.

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it must have been good but i lost it somehow.