it is called damn.a.tion

i feel like someone or something is controlling me, like im a puppet.
but in this case, im one heck of a stupid puppet.
always allowing the pull-er to yank me apart till my level of sanity goes out of the door.
how stupid of me, not to fight back and well, be a smart puppet.
still, i think i have tried, and lost the race each time i tried, now, it is not about giving up.
can you imagine, the pull-er forcing me around, now i say fcuk that.

back to sanity point,...
i went to the dentist this afternoon only because my wisdom tooth was giving a problem, i was biting on my cheek and it was hurting for a few days now.
without even allowing me to think about it, he plucked my wisdom tooth out!
[note: i extract flowers, i pluck teeth]
yes, he didnt allow me to think twice, now thats one wise dentist.
and right at this moment, i live on PK [haha, pain killers] so that i would not feel the ache.
but it was all good, within 3 minutes or so, my tooth was out, thank god for that.
so .. not so wise anymore. hah!

back to my story
i backspaced again, shoot joy.
i shall not keep you waiting.

p/s: sad.

title: changes

i typed and back spaced, twice.
just shows how sick i am, of even thinking of you.
its like, my mind just goes haywire every time i try fixing this mental problem in my head.
then i decide to think happy thoughts, and my mind is free again.
in exactly a week, it will be the 3rd of december.
then i remember two decembers ago, happier moments.
anyway the point is not to sound sad and shitty but yea.. it happens

did i tell you...
my wisdom tooth is being a pain, big time.
i've been hurting my cheek, ouch man.

then my mind goes blank, because i thought of you.

p/s: santa, can you hear me?

omg. hah! santa heard me.
he sent me a present, unexpected.
escada sentiment. (:

this getting better, i bet.

good and getting better.

good news folks.

i am going for the mamma mia! musical with of course my mother.
see, God works wonders.

story time, little ones.
the begining of this month was hectic.
hectic = assignmenting.
so i was in my world with no newspapers whatsoever.
and basically tickets were out and i didnt know.
BUT then i found out two weeks after that..
and managed to get the bad news that tickets were sold out!
seven days, you name it from the cheapest to the most lah.
i was in pist off mode because...

1. i love musicals
2. i love musicals
3. i love abba
4. i love abba

yada yada. and then..
yesterday at church, last few announcements were going on but mother and i were busy chatting a wee bit, but ting ting ting... i heard the magic word, mamma mia!
so i left and walked till i found the lady selling the tickets.

"it's on the 19th of december, a week before christmass, it is 353 and it is a matinee show, 3 pm"
"have any night shows?"
"no, all we have is these tickets"
"will get back to you"

and here comes my superwoman...
who said, LETS GO. I WILL GO WITH YOU.
no one can top my list.
and so we've got pretty good seats.

NO, NOT ASKING FOR MORE.

on a different note..
re: the last post.

i think we are on a quest.
and if all goes well, i will definitely update.
as for now... it goes along these lines; rendezvous

p/s: christmas is in a month. (=

does everything happen for a reason?

why did i ask that question at lunch table today?

is this how the truth of the family should be revealed...no
but it seems to be bothering me, way, too, much...
tears were welling in my eyes; rubbish i tell you

i found out something. nothing proud of

its been twelve days.

[i got over the loss of my guess heels]

no, i didnt find the same one.
yes, i am over and done with it.

____________________

finally done with this semester.
that makes,... irene accomplished with
1 year of foundation.
1 year of degree

and left with 2 years of degree and in my face. :)

christmas is coming....
sitting in my eye mask and eating my leonidas.
gah!

finger nails in shocking red, toe nails in a-shade-of-brown.
been dreaming of a holiday.
do i smell holiday?

p/s: i need happy therapy.

so many titles running in my head, dots

[i have been so extremely busy and no time to blog, no time to have fun but had time to party]

so i dont get it- eh chop, these days i need a minimum of 8 hours if not my eyes will be shut while on the phone in the morning and it will only open if you tell me something out of the ordinary.

have been wanting to tell the world a few things.

first up.....

so i have been doing assignments practically everyday. starts of with segafredo in pyramid, to starbucks in ss2, to starbucks in assunta hospital and lastly back at segafredo in pyramid. sick of starbucks because its NOT YET christmas but the decor is up, carols being sung and the christmas-see feel does not happen when i am still not done with this sem.

actually, that wasnt the point. okay now to the point. so i was doing my work on word. and tell me who doesnt use thesaurus. best thing created dont you think? it challenges you ALL THE TIME. because my sentence was "the gap between the rich and the poor"... along those lines and i decided to thesaurus gap because i wanted to be original. hah!

and the results were....

"the crack between the rich and the poor"

"the hole between the rich and the poor"

now all the more reasons to use that god given brains of mine than the computers brain.

somehow computers brains quite the bodo and small.

next up...

everyone loves irene?! right? i know. but then again, everybody loves coffee. and everybody loves starbucks. one thing i know, i do. without a doubt. no, im running side ways again. point is.. everytime i drink my grande java chip,.. i am left with 3 awful results

1. stomach pain, it just aches for awhile and then it goes away. still bole tahan because nothing compares to period ache.

2. stomach full, and so all i need is coffee and im good to go for the whole day without food. weird how it works in my system, that i become full and it makes me look like a fool. gee.

lastly.....

3. shit feeling, it works so fast in my system that i need to kaka. it means shit.

okay this is currently how i am feeling now.

see, there's a new bitch in my house. her name is LOLA sounds like that. and so i completely forgot about this bitch in the house and i left my guess heels in the house. i know how stupid of me but i got home at 2 in the morning and i had no time to put it back in the cupboard because my life is not worth the rm150. and so i just checked my guess heels out because granny said she bit it. and damn that bitch, she bit it. speechless. no photos to show damage, but i am sure as hell walking in guess to get a new pair. i cant stand it! stupid bitch.

p.s will show that bitch's face soon but now i need to go get my guess heels.

i call it mad rush

something i forgot to mention.
on a lighter and happier note.
i drove a manual car the other day.
the thrills...glad i actually managed the car.
not bad a driver after all.

mad rush?
yeah, assignments are.
like seriously...i just cant wait for this semester to be over.
so sick. so sick of assignments, so tired of tears.

hahahahaha

saturday and its supposED to be sit back enjoy and catch up.
but NO....im stressing over assignments

p/s: i cant take one step at a time because there is no more TIME.