you will .never. understand

words CAN do wonders

i would say i am a sucker thats all.

to please myself,i say "words can do wonders".

but i know im a sucker to him*.

a turning point where i carry my heart and all the things that made me good.
i leave the other part,where only took things for the worst.

then you realise what LOVE is.....

my god is so big and so strong.

goodbye to you

excuse moi,you are not suppose to know what i am talking about.
only for your eyes to see and your mouth to ramble.
ramble on about something you dont know.
so then again,think if rambling on about me is worth it.
this wasn't made by me for you to understand it at all.
its just something i write and want the world to ponder and still not know what i am talking about.
i am selfish.


it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.
i want whats yours and i want whats mine.
i want you and i am giving in this time.........

.SHE.

it was a sunny day!
she decided to sit under the umbrella.
i started taking pictures of her and i assume she could see the flash so she turned and posed for her very own shot.

she is such an adorable fat dog.
she is so lazy to even stand up and eat.
she is a smart dog too!

she is the LEWIS' dog.
she is KIMM!

chapter 7 volume 10 *latest*

i want to shout it out to the world.
i want everyone to know how i feel.
i want that particular person to know as well.

BUT..................

i dont want to shout it out to the world.
i dont want everyone to know how i feel.
i dont want that particular person to know as well.


i am starting off from scratch,AGAIN.
life is too short for me to give it up to someone who DOES NOT deserve it.
i am moving on with whatever i am left with.
a heart that was torn over and over again.
the beauty of it all,..i have my big man with me.
this time around,i am BOLD

so it is going to be another chapter,in the same book.
whereby the only thing i carry on with is me,myself and irene.

"the world is going to talk,i am giving 'ME' for them to ramble on about."

this is how I overcome.
he WILL turn my mourning into dancing.
he WILL turn my sorrows into joy.

i just want to love you...........

and IT begins AGAIN!

first day of class was as exciting as how excited i was!
......you get it.

YES,i had such a great day!

the laughing stock,loud,vibrant,energetic MOI is back in action!

i am glad that gee,i am learning once again.
i cant wait for more of it. :)

my class could be defined as COOL. *lol*
22 of us in the class,i think its still counting.
BUT for now we have 20 girls and 2 boys.
shall i call them pretty boys?
the class is great,thats how i would like to sum it up.

first day of class was deff a good one! :)

i likey likey so much

it gave me a reason to read,and i read it.

BEAUTIFUL LOVE

1 john 4:19
"we love because he first loved us"

i quote myself

"love is a game,except i am always the loser"

i quote myself,YET AGAIN

"love is a game,except NOW i will be the winner at heart"

agape love?
the best ever.
GODs loves is!

love life is great.
to know,i am loved.
above all,that i love.
the beauty of it all
comes down to this....
JESUS LOVES ME!

the next day.............

second day of coll.

alright,i got the most important thing done that is paying up my fees.

no doubt i am still quite lost in the college,i am getting around it.

class begins tomorrow and i cant wait!

AHEM!
looks like i really really want to gain more knowledge once again.

looking forward to everything..............once again!

it is not my wedding YET

first day at college.

sometimes it is good not to hope for TOO much because when it doesn't turn out the way you EXPECTED,you'd get frustrated.

SO....that was how my first day of college was!

i went there with nothing,no receipts,no cheques for fees,no NOTHING!

orientation was boring.............i cant wait for class to start.

my honest opinion,taylors is like main land china!

but it's all good.
mommy says i can improve on my chinese now.thats hopefully!

besides that,its just welcome to college life!

all hail irene in college!

GO FIGURE YOU.

3a1 - 3 x 1 = 3
1a2 - 1 x 2 = 2
4b3 - 4 x 3 = 12
TOTAL = 17

17 x rm30 = rm510

ONLY moi daddy can come up with such a thing.............

thats why im oh-so-loving the lewis'

THE . BEAT

the feelings are jumbled up.
i want this and i want that.i want that right there as well!
i seem to want everything but at the same time not wanting anything.
so its pretty confusing?!yeah,my life seems like that somehow.

i need to live an ordinary life but somehow i want to live an EXTRAordinary life.

to sum it up.........well i cant find the right words to do this.

we said "nobody wants to see us together but it dont matter cos i got you"
...................then out of the blue the record was playing and it sounded like "i had you"

BUT BUT BUT??? no buts!

ah heck this thing actually.
i am going to be looking good on my first day of college.

"mom aren't you and dad going to drop me off on my first day of college?"
"no,the driver will send you to college."
"huh?i need you there!"

now this bond is too tight.
how ironic.....im still lonely

the best part is....i am happy.i have jesus in moi.

LET.EMOTIONS.TALK

sometimes when you let emotions take control of you,you tend to do stupid and silly things.some of which you may regret.

i cut my maxis sim card *1 cut 8* when i was angry about a week ago and i left it on my table.
the next day i find it not on the table and i guessed as much my kakak through it into my dustbin.

i got firing for doing that while mother just laughed at my stupidity.

TODAY.....
while working on the computer i see a new sim card on the table.

yes i got back my maxis line.

the things i do is terrible BUT the things he does is just very mysterious.

after all the firing and the shouting of,"you threw your sim card you go to maxis and get it yourself.i am not getting it for you.you deserve it right."

so........the lesson i learnt is.
IT IS GOOD TO LET YOUR EMOTIONS TAKE CONTROL OF YOU.
YOU GET BACK WHAT YOU LEAST EXPECT.
and I DONT REGRET ANYTHING!not yet...

hahahahahahahahahahaa......

then again,i always let my emotions take control of me.

my actions becomes more aggresive.
my words turn into spears.
my voice becomes louder.
my face becomes red-er.... ha!

i realised.
SOMETIMES I CANT MAKE IT ON MY OWN - U2

THE .DAY.

so the many fans kept asking me what my results were and well....
i say,i could have gotten straights if i wanted too BUT i didn't want!

i did not get my ais kacang a.k.a ABC!
if you get what i mean....

my dad says,"you'd be crazy to get straight A's."
so you see,there was no pressure and expectations that i had to live up too!
praise the lord almighty! :)
i basically studied NOT to please anyone but myself and what i got doesn't matter to me if it pleases anyone BUT myself.
selfish moi but its a FACT of life.

i have the brains after all.so mess you not i shout to the world.
ahhhhhhh,for satisfaction thats utter bullshit.

i get a reward too!
my mom and dad are way tip top.

yay to my family thats so cool!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.......the lewis' rock my smelly socks!

.SATURDAY AFTERNOON FEVER.

the best thing to do on a saturday is rest and relax with your mother.

we did our nails together and it can never get any better.

my nails are pretty now.the beauty of pampering myself.

the wonders mothers can do! nyeh.

i was thinking of my blog then i decided to tell the world "my little big secret."

there is an arowana in my house.
it is my daddy's pet.
his name is ping-ping.
he is 10 years old. *not fish age or whatever,just the years its been living in my house*
he is quite a big fish and its silverish in colour.
he is a sensitive fish that only my dad can deal with. *beat that*

sometime ago,i was siting in the hall and i was looking at ping-ping.mother was at the computer and i was talking to her loudly from the sofa.then i looked at ping-ping and said "you no more handsome lar,your eye is dropping off the socket".my mother got up and came to me and in a loud and stern voice she said, "don't you dare say that to him.he is a handsome boy.now you say sorry to ping-ping and don't you ever say that again". i refused to say sorry and i was just siting there and my mother forced me to say it.i looked at ping-ping and then in a tone that was filled with anger and frustration i said "SORRY".

I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS INCIDENT BECAUSE I HAD TO SAY SORRY TO MY FISH!

i mean there is a difference when you talk to dogs because they aren't in the water and they can hear you because the ears can been seen and it sometimes moves but the fish in the water have ears too?

i dont see them EARS!

no,you dont know. :)

i am actually a girl who is happy eating her manggo,sipping on her grande java chip,talking loudly like there is no one arond me,acting like maria from sound of music and eliza from pygmalion,siting in my towel blogging,pulling my running nose,thinking of when i am going to finish up my story book,dreaming about pampering myself.

SO YES,I AM A HAPPY GIRL AFTER ALL.

"there is tears behind my smile".

i know.its clashing but i like to munch on the mango seed. *yums*

MY.ALL.TIME.LUNCHEONS

i was siting in this outdoor restaurant with him and we were having lunch.
while waiting for my food,i was staring into space.
i could hear noises,i could see people doing all sorts of things.
i watched the world go by.yes,i did!
and boy was it nice to know other people's insight when you eavesdrop their conversations.
that is one of the best things you can do while you are having a 'silent' lunch just after an argument.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA..........
don't you think life is like a joke sometimes?
it tickles my tummy.

.god knows.

something that i want to do so badly.
I JUST WANT TO BREAK FREE!!!!!
*with the 5 exclamation mark dammnit!*

then when the radio plays akon,don't matter.
i sing along.
NOBODY WANNA SEE US TOGETHER BUT IT DON'T MATTER COS I GOT YOU.
that is mere bullshit.

it has been an awful day for me and it hasn't gotten better since BUT i hope for a better night.at least i would have smiled today.

i quote robin williams.
"MEN HAVE ONE BRAIN AND ONE PENIS BUT NOT ENOUGH BLOOD TO RUN THE TWO AT THE SAME TIME"
yes,i know.tell me about it.
then again,...Ladies,
*toot* men,toast to me.

I WANT TO BREAK FREE

THE.*toot*.PHRASE

"you will never understand it now."

i feel that this is totally uncalled for.
dont you think so as well?
common,in life every human would go through everything as time passes.
there is no need to rush into anything because then life isn't worth living after all.
i despise people who tells me that because it is so NOT necessary!

I PERSONALLY FEEL THAT,well..................
i would never understand alot of things because i have only lived a dozen and a half in this world and there is SO much in this world that i have YET to explore.

leave me alone.thanking you in much much advance.
agree with me that blogs have alot of pro's.
for instance the first on the list.
WE CAN VENT IT ALL OUT HERE.

if i would tell my mother.it would be like something like this.

irene : *loud voice* "mother,i dont know why some people have to tell me that i will never understand it now.its like,is it so necessary to understand it now?like YO MAN!"
mother : *laughs* like YO MAN!

much better..........................