i cant update my days.

there's so many things that i want to blog about.
but but but.........
i dont know la!

anyway i got my results.
so i couldnt do the drama of shoving the results in his face.
but i did call him and said that i got my A's!
i wanted to say a lot of other things as well, but i controled this time.

well, i only shove results when people think otherwise about me.
when they think or say i cant do it.
but damn, i am right!
i got my A's.

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i drove the merc yesterday, alone.
and she got to sit in it.
and heading to curve i was freaking out.
am i going to do the tatoo on daddy's car as well?
thank god, i could park.
not bad a parker.

anyway my parents are being paranoid as well.
with what that has happened, i can only dream of getting a car.
everything now is, take the driver.

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typing on the keyboard fells better than before.
short nails are so much easier.
and bright dark red looks good on my short stumpy nails.
bright dark?
gosh, i think it was OPI romeo and juliet?
i forgot.

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college timetable is out.
hectic mad.
class is at 8, everyday.
gila la.
thank god its friday! :)
still off on that day.
but thats NOT the point.
point is, its like back to school.
i am talking about the waking up early part.
ish.

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tomorrow is all souls day.
my mother wanted to put mass for BJ.
and then father said that animals do not have souls!
so, okay no mass for BJ.
stop mourning for him.
think about all the animals we eat.
and their soul goes to heaven?
okay i still believe BJ is up in heaven playing in the garden.
i miss BJ.

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day 3: horror

how do i even begin this?

dear diary,
i was assaulted and robbed on friday night.
i am scared. i am angry. i am traumatised.
i lost both my 18th birthday presents.
my lv handbag and my cell phone.
and everything in the handbag.
but i thank god.
i thank god for the live that he spared me.
i know i am not the best christian.
but i am still alive.
my injuries are minor.
my right hand and leg is bruised.
i am not physically tortured.
but mentally and emotionally.
everytime i close my eyes,
i see this man,...
breaking into the car ransacking everything,
jumping over my gate coming after me,
pulling my hair and slamming me down,
snatching my handbag,
jumping over the gate,
ransacking the car again,
and speeding off.
the helpless and shocked me,
lying on the ground numb.
i was vulnerable.
i was numb.
i was scared.
i still am.

....i tell of this so that everyone would be alert
and always be on the look out.
dont get too carried away with anything

ithankgodforthelifeistillhave

bleh.

i went for a massage last night.
good stuff.
not asking for more.
in my fair opinion,
NO ITS NOT A WASTE OF MONEY!

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today, i want to do my hair.
but damn again, she is fussing the world.
in my fair opinion,
NO ITS NOT A WASTE OF MONEY!

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for a mo, i thought to myself,

"waste of money? yeah what you spend on every friday night without fail. in between's there are the other random nights as well. which just makes you look like a fool when you come home. now thats a waste of money, alcohol i mean."

then i said,
"IRENE SHUT UP!"

your mouth is pretty laser-ish.

and i did, as said.

___________ filled with anger.

myonlywishthisyear

Last night I took a walk in the snow.

Couples holding hands, places to go

Seems like everyone but me is in love.

Santa can you hear me

I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss

I sent it off

It just said this

I know exactly what I want this year.

Santa can you hear me.

I want my baby (baby, yeah)

I want someone to love me someone to hold me.

Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is near

He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here.

Santa thats my only wish this year.

oohhh ohh yeah

Christmas Eve I just can't sleep

Would I be wrong for taking a peek?

Cause I heard that your coming to town

Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)

Really hope that your on your way

With something special for me in your sleigh

Ohh please make my wish come true

Santa can you hear meI want my baby (baby)

I want someone to love me someone to hold me

Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is near

He's all I want just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here santa thats my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time

Bring me love can call all mine

(yeah yeah) cause I have been so good this year.

Can't be alone under the mistletoe

He's all want and a big red bow

Santa can you hear me (hear me?)

I have been so good this year

And all i want is one thing

Tell me my true love is near

He's all I want.

just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah)

santa thats my only wish this year

Oh santa can u hear me?

oh santaWell hes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree

Oh I'll be waiting here

Santa thats my only wish this year.

.....

my all time fav. christmas song.

it gets me in the mood.

and i have been listening to it over and over again.

i cant wait for christmas.

i am already feeling the spirit.

:)

day 2: massage.

a couple of things.

i got the arcylic gel french tips removed.
so sad-ening! :(
there was no kind soul who wanted to pay for my touch up.
oh well, it was an experience though.
but now, its back to short soft brittle nails.
i was this close *puts thumb and fore finger real near* to be able to do the touch up.
very close.
and it crushed before my eyes.
and i dont want to talk about it.
ish.

thats that.

i received donuts this afternoon.
all the ones i loved and she knew it.
J. Co donuts are heaven sent.
too good to be true.
ah, its yum times five! :)

thats that.

i am in desperate need of a massage.
yes body massage.
body means from my head to my toe.
shucks!
i wonder why is it aching.
so i am contemplating,massage or work out?
argh!

thats that.

i cant wait for tomorrow.
tomorrow is catching up.
i just cant wait.

thats that.

i am bored of my hair.
i need to do something to it.
if i tie it,it looks like a broom stick.
if i let it down it looks like a dry mop.
either way, it doesnt look good.
so its time i do something to it.
cutting it short is not on my list,
i have something planned for christmas.
this half black half coloured hair is a nuisance.

thats that.

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i told myself that i wouldnt want to waste this one and a half week holiday.

day 1: sunway lagoon

tired .

but i have to say

it was worth the walk up because coming down was so much fun .

even though it wasn't even for a minute .

the seconds still do count .

and every second did .

and a good work out, yet again .

i think sleep is calling . . . . . .

i can hear it . . . . .

i deserved this .

i did .

now i also deserve a good and relaxing massage .

and foot spa .

i was wondering if the camera was necessary .

but i find it HARD,

to capture the moment and enjoy it at the same time .

though i can multi task,

this i couldnt help.

no sh0ts captured .

it doesnt matter,anyway .

i say,

"next time when i have my children i will hire a photographer

to capture every moment i have with them"

and it will keep going . . . .

itu.kamu

update: i am done with my finals.
i cant get enough of "no tomorrow". :)

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and today i was contemplating if i should go to the gym.
i did, alone (first time)
anyhoo.
coversation took place. *with this malay guy*

towelboy: your nails are nice.
me: thank you.
towelboy: its cutex?
me: its fake. *smiles*
towelboy: oh,very nice.
me: *smiles*

so how am i going to tell him its arcylic gel french tips?
i shall stick to it as fake nails. :)
to-the-point-understood-by-all-need-no-explanation

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i want to try the fish reflexology.

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and i am so lost now.....
maybe i should be.
but tomorrow will be a better day.
i know it gets better.
cos i said so.
:)

besties and lovers

i dont know which is which.
going bonkers studying or affection deprived.

anyhoo,....
i thought of bestie and decided to text her.
and it went on....and made me happy

me: bestie! you miss me? how much? you love me? how much? note: please state correct figure. *laughing emoticon*
bestie: i miss you 1 percent less than god misses you. i love you 1 percent less than god loves you. peace. wah. damn alot right. haha
me: why 1 percent less? *crying emoticon* where the 1 percent go?
bestie: let god be number one. i number two la. tiu. so simple also dont understand. haha. tsk. tsk.
me: think you very smart la. so poyo!
bestie: fine. bye. *crying emoticon*

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...... she made me laugh tonight
note: i did not laugh the whole day.
and she made me laugh so much...
playing lover with her was so much of fun.
fun you can only have with a bestie who is as crazy as you.
tonight, i go to bed with a big smile.
i mean a BIG smile.
where you see my upper and lower set of teeth.

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iamaddictedtoyoudee

finalswillbeovertomorrow

time to maintain .

1. eyebrows
2. nails
3. body

why is it 'on-hold' whenever finals are around?

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making sure that life doesnt stay boring .

i miss quite a lot of people .

but most of all, i miss BJ .

:(

no.tomorrow

Let's go to a rave,
And behave like we're trippin'
Simply 'cause we're so in love.

Funny hats, shiny pants-
All we need for some romance,
Go get dolled-up
And I'll pick you up.

There's no line for you and me'
Cause tonight we're V.I.P.
(I know somebody at the door).

I see that twinkle in your eye,
You shake that ass and I just die,
Let's check our coats and move out to the floor.

When I'm dancing with you
Tomorrow doesn't matter.
Turn that music up'
Till the windows start to shatter'
Cause you're the only one who can get me on my feet.
And I can't even dance.

Just look at me, Silly Me,
I'm as happy as can be-
I got a girl who thinks I rock.
And tomorrow there's no school,
So lets go drink some more Red Bull,
And not get home 'till about 6:00.

When I'm dancing with you
Tomorrow doesn't matter.
Turn that music up'
Till the windows start to shatter'
Cause you're the only one who can get me on my feet.
And I can't even dance.

Everybody here is staring
At the outfit that you're wearing-
(I) Love it when they check you out.
Cover's only twenty bucks,
And even if the dj sucks
It's time to turn this mutha out

When we're together
There's no tomorrow,
No Tomorrow.
When we're together
There's no one in the world
but you and me.
Just you and me.
You and me

....... happy song
i am talking about the one that can sweep you off your feet,
not the one that you can bang your head too.

p/s: i want the songer. :)

how to save irene?

this year.
christmas without *him*.
it is going to be different.
he was the birthday boy.
he will be.
forever.

and i have been listening to carols..........

18 october 2007

10 years ago.
and today.

its too painful.
very.

my style of saying 'huh'?

finally i found the time to go get my IC done.
thank god i went today, there weren't many people.
no thats not the point.

conversation took place.

me: i have to make a new IC.
man: lost it?
me: yes i did. [takes out police report]
man: [reads the report] first time?
me: yes.
man: okay you have to pay a fine of rm110.
me: huh?

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yo man!
someone stole my wallet!
the wallet itself cost more than what the 'stealer' earns.
and there goes my credit card.
and my vouchers.
not forgetting my money.
AND NOW I HAVE TO PAY A FINE?
DO I LOOK LIKE I REALLY WANTED 'STEALER' TO STEAL IT?

gosh,if i find the damn stealer. [i am being nice, by not calling the person some funky name]
i would personally shove my IC down her/his throat or up her/his ***!

frus lah!
really very frus la!

p/s: i think 'stealer' is smart. short con.

BUT OH WAIT.

DEAR STEALER.
YOUR REWARD IS IN HEAVEN.

enough of playing games.

tarzan girl

it has been years.
and finally we decided.
Port Dickon would be the best place
for the weekend.
we scraped Redang and Cherating.
tomorrow i am off.
i need it.
i want it.
relax, take it easy.

while searching for places and hotels last night,
i discovered something.
haha!

anyhoo, i want the spa.
and the jetski.

its time we enjoyed.
together.
again.

too painful for a title

should i say everything happens for a reason?

if so, why did this happen to me?

trying to stay optimistic is hard.

but i keep trying and trying,harder and harder.

it is gone. nothing to hold on too.

i feel empty, lost.

like one big part of me is gone.

feel like a goner.

but i dont pray that the good soul returns it to me.

i pray that for whatever reason the person took it,

it made the person feel better.

better at stealing, maybe?

no, the thought of getting everything done all over again doesnt hurt.

the thought that i lost my 17th birthday present hurts.

the joy that was in me when mummy surprised me in the room.

the tears that came rolling down talking to mummy when it was missing.

she still makes me feel better.

but for now, my louis vuitton wallet is gone.

i pray the stealer stole for a reason.

so that i will know that everything happens for a reson.

blah, i can get a new one.

p/s : you who took it, lucky you. get to parade a louis vuitton wallet around?

simple.

if you used the money on food, i hope you'd purge for a week.

if you used the credit card on whatever you want, try harder.

if you used my wallet to show it off.............. ah,you cant carry it off the way i do.

ranting my anger, it feels better.

still, its too painful.

to think about it.....

and i'll be better when i'm older..

tonight.
when doesnt it go wrong?
like every other day,
tonight was the same
except,oreo mc flurry made me happy.
eating it and thinking about the 371 calories.
i care,but then again.
i am least bothered.
at least i am feeling better.
i use to love eating my feelings.
but its wrong now.
so wrong!
the drama today led to something usual.
we didnt go work out.
joy.

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i was going through my FILES of PICTURES.
a lot of pictures taken before.
now its cut down.
maybe i rather enjoy the moment.
its too hard to enjoy and capture at the same time.
anyway.
point is this.
i never looked good in braces.
it is still a wonder how i could still smile so big.
then again.
you wouldnt want to see my smiling with my mouth close.
looks like i am constipated.
sigh.
who cares.

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weekend is here.
this means alot!
wait,no outing tomorrow night.
it might just be movies.
better.

okay.
event is next week.
joy.

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so after event.
its study break.
then comes finals.
and i am done.
with this sem.


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i was looking through my fei-T's pictures.
ah i miss us.
and the nonsense we use to do.
and the drama.
and the wanting to skip class.
and the list goes on.......

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ah i am quite proud of myself.
my nails are lasting.
first thing i asked the lady before doing it.

me:can i wash my hair?
nail lady:can.
me:okay good.

i scratch my head hard.
i love the sensation.

i heard this song...
this song this someone used to sing to me.
was bringing back a lot of memories.
[i was in the toilet passing shit]
and i was like "heck! it is over and done with. call baby love once i am done"
then when i came out of the toilet,
the song ended.
thank god.
memory lost.
HAHAHAHAHAH!

it is a MUST.

GO TELL IT ON THE MOUNTAINS,

OVER THE SEAS

AND EVERYWHERE!

is the question why?

BECAUSE...

the project manager said SO!

GO!

thank you.

:)

my god is an awesome god

hectic.
i am lovin' it.
when irene is project manager.

event is in a week.
i hope it pays off.
the tears, the shouting, the yelling, the arguing.

i do,for the event.

blah!
bodo girl.

i love getting surprises.
.getthehint.

my god is big.
he will tapau all who messes with me,myself and irene.
*smiles*

i am to cool for you boy.

savanh, here we come.

as i get down the car.
jockey man: hari ini,jangan gaduh ya.

jockey lady: keluaur nanti jangan macam hari itu.

....the only reason why i didnt want to go to savanh.

[rephrase: not scared,just embarrassed]

turned out,all went well.

phew,thank god.

in savanh.

music was good.

we were dancing.

i was sweating.

good cardio workout.

"...seating on a base speaker.

my legs were hurting bad.
cos i was sleepy.

cos i was tired.
my ass was vibrating.

i felt like farthing.

i felt better though,
than standing.

my legs werent hurting,

like how it was.

my ass was hurting though.

ah,i rather my ass

then my legs.

which i couldnt stand.

i sat on the base speaker."

bah kut after a night like that, was good.

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it was very random.

i always wanted to get it done.

and i finally got it.

not bad, not bad.

now i just have to see how long it will last.

i love the "while doing it" and after look.