so much of a big deal i am making.

so today is the 29th of february.
i seem to be making it a big deal that nobody understands.
well, this date does not come every year in this month.
and its a wonder why nobody makes a big deal out of it.

i wanted to do something out of the ordinary.
then again, i couldnt find anything that extraordinary.
then maybe this post was necessary.
because i never had a date of such.

today is friday.
my fridays used to be this.
wake up when the body was up.
make calls out.
off to the salon for hair wash.
luncheon was a must.
and chilling out was the story.
dinner at night, fancy or not.
getting ready and out.
partying the night away.
back home and plonked on my bed.

today is friday.
my friday would sum up to this.
gym.
facial.
tea.
dinner.
movie.

or somewhere around those things.
its like just the ordinary.
but i will make it the best.
and i must remember today. :)
double must.

tomorrow is march the 1st.
and its pay day.
so now what can i reward good myself with?

i made a big deal about today.
i want surprises now. (:

time to recall

a month just flew by. tomorrow i am back to college for my orientation.
and now i want to sit and think of my productive month. productive enough i hope.

my accomplishments. :)

• finished reading "the wedding" and started on "the pact"
• went to cherating with my chinese family
• signed up in another gym and started exercising
• got to spend time with whoever i lost contact with
• went to work in gillin printers
• cleaned the dust off my room
• watched a movie, "dan in real life"
• settled with the whole "which uni to go too"
• got my license done, at last
• made money out of washing hair

so i realised that this month i have been spending way too much. but it was not on shopping. more on all these "ting ting tang tang" that i lost track. it is still amazing though that everytime i am out of cash, somehow the good mother and korkor would fill my wallet again.

...on a different account, i told mother *at last that i've been wanting a new wallet. and i did mention that i wanted a new LV wallet. i knew she wasnt too keen about it because my LV is just siting in my drawer. but she doesnt seem to understand this.

"i dont want to use something that someone else has taken away from me"

anyhoo, the month off is gone. and its time to hit the books again. before the brains turn into mush, glad i'll be going back to college.

i.am.happy - i made *them proud

pretty random.

i drive kor kor's car and the same cd plays everytime i am in it.
note: when i drive i do NOT listen to the radio.
so its a wonder who burnt the cd.
but the point is, i only listen to the first two songs.
and i repeat it over and over and over again.
its a real wonder that i do not get bored of it.
but then again, i find it real ironic.
"i love you always and forever"
and the other song about "sometimes love just aint enough"
i am always thinking of something when i am on the road.
or maybe to a certain extend, hey i am focusing!
i have only caught bits and pieces of the song.
and i wonder the rest of it.....the meaning

it reminds me.
i will have my own burnt cd's when i drive my car.....soon enough

my eyes are shutting.

dear diary,

i am tired but i still think i want to write before i head to bed. my day was fine, i guess. i went to monash uni to hand in my results. that reminds me, i got my results and i am content. lets just put it as this, i got the A's for everything except for moral because i did not sit for my quiz which carried out 10% of results. the B+ just spoiled my string of A's but hang that. i did not disappoint anybody so all is good. i watched "dan in real life" today and there were only two of us in the cinema. the movie was so-so only, the ending was as predicted. i went to the office in the evening. trying to not make mom and dad think i am one hella lazy girl. i was typing invoices on the old typewritter. mom insists that we use the typewritter for invoices as it has been typing in alot of money for the past twenty one years. i went for chinese dinner tonight and my usual strawberry chocolate fondue. not bad, not bad at all. so that wraps up my day. nothing that fancy happened. oh yeah i was talking to mom tonight. which now makes me realize how lucky i am to have a mom like that. versatile, understanding and can tolerate me yaking for hours. so yes my day could never be better than this. oh i am actually expecting a few things for the results i achieved. then again, or should i say, note: not expecting a lot i guess. alright, i will write soon. as for now i need to go "choong leong", maybe read a little or yak on the phone and then hit the sack. so ta!

it is PRETTY confusing

i erased what i typed out first.
didnt want to sound "unlike the usual me".

for starters, i am absolutely confused.
for the rest, i am not selfish but just dont know what i want.

its like i want the best, duh!
but i am confused.
thats because i am fickle minded with a brain that doesnt like to put much thought to anything, in fact everything.

PRETTY confusing, it seems as though i am lost in myself.
not knowing what i want, what i need, what i deserve.

fact.
i deserve the best.
i need the best.
i want the best.

enough said.

its drama i tell you.

so talking about blogs.
i was reading a blog and was just scrolling for pictures.
i "betahan" wanna read words.
especially when you wake up with eyes half shut at the screen.
i want pictures to do the talking.

so talking about blogs again.
conversation took place.

b1: eh you read the blog?
b2 & b3: yes i did.
b1: i am scared la.
b3: why la?
b1: you know it sounds lassy.
b2 & b3: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA...
anony: what is lassy?
b1: you know they have it in strawberry etc.
b3: yeah they have it in apple too.
b1 & b2 & b3: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA...

okay that was some funny inside joke.

so talking about blogs yet again.
somebody didnt like the style i write.
it was at the spur of the moment and i kena tiu.
well, it didnt make me remove that entry.
and now who cares.

ENOUGH ON BLOGS.

valentines day ya. no big. but one part i must shout about.
my morning valentine was the best.
i took her for fish spa.
she bought me this (i would call it) dolly lovely.
laugh laugh laugh, scream shout laugh and had a good time together.

THAT WAS ALL I'D MENTION.

so i cleaned my room yesterday.
and am glad i did.
even though i didnt manage to clean up everything,
i got the 1KG of dust off my room.
was wondering what was my maid doing at home for a mo.
then i realised its lent.
enough said.

ENOUGH.

i bought two books by jodi picoult.
the pact. my sister's keeper.
have yet to begin because i've been out so much.
suddenly home feels like a hotel.
i only come back for my bed.
but its been all goose.

MOVING ON.

oh this is a must.
so i went for massage yesterday.
45 minutes foot, 45 minutes body.
realised even though they were speaking mandarin they had very good marketing skills.
asked us to purchase some detox oil ma bob! and do this "ba guan" treatment.
so why not? since we dont do this everday.
ba guan treatment - releases the angin from your body
and so we were lying on our backs.
couldnt see what was happening on the other side.
but as for me, the lady was rubbing my back and it was pretty hot.
then i looked the other side and saw her putting fire in cups and putting it on his back.
so when she started putting it on mine, i started screaming.
damn was it hot and it was pulling the life of my back!
after it was over, we had cup marks on our backs.
so whatever, didnt care cos it felt good after that.
this morning i woke up and was going to bathe when i saw my back and got a shock.
the cups marks are still on my back.
it looks like someone gave me *right size* punches all over.
i am bruised (something like that la the colour)
and i had to carefully choose my top so i wouldnt scare the daylights of anybody.
then i realised i was going swimming tomorrow.
and bro bro told me that the marks will be on my back for 2 weeks.
2 weeks!
and what am i to wear?
but yeah, i was farting after the treatment = it worked.
hahahahah.

SO SYIOK!

oh and the drama?
i tell you, i can never pull of a better one.
and today i must say.
GOD WAS WITH ME. :)
i was stubborn to take a cab home.
with only 5 bucks and coins.
no credit on my cell.
and counting my coins in the cab, i had 8 ringgit and some 1 cents.
the fare was rm8.
dont you think god was with me?
yes i could have gotten in to take the money but still.....
HE WAS WITH ME.
and about the drama, gah!
the normal king kong 2 ma bob! i couldnt tolerate.

HE IS REAL.

and now i pray for no more drama.
but peace of mind.

i would stand head strong. im walking on sunshine

i dont want to be the bigger person

I HAPPEN TO GIVE A SHIT

cherating. inspiration.

i was walking on the beach alone on sunday morning.
where i was standing, there was no one on the beach except for me.

i was talking to god because it was so calm, quiet and peaceful.

the waves crashing into my legs made me move back a little.

yet i stood still talking to someone in my mind.

i didnt feel like walking along the beach, i didnt feel the urge.

the sun was piercing through my skin, but no sweat dripped.

the wind was blowing, it was so cool and nice.

i stood there soaking my feet when the little waves came in.

my feet was sinking in and before it went deeper, i walked a little.

our conversation was good, i spoke my mind.

and my little brain was wondering, about just so many things.

my life, my family, my friends; my everything.

standing still and looking out into the sea, i knew i had to leave.

somehow i could feel his presence, with no footprints.

then i remembered about the footprints.

and how whatever trailed around me wasnt mine, but his.

after talking, thinking and wondering, i knew i had to go already.

the morning sun was nice enough to let me just stare one time at it.

without my shades when i first walked on the beach.

i felt uneasy as the sun was piercing into my eyes.

then i took it as a gift from god.

i walked alone on the beach that morning and i enjoyed it.

i felt so relax. i felt so nice. i felt so happy.

god was walking with me.

i felt him. i did.

the beauty of god which i caught. (:

hold up. wait a minute.

everything is happening too fast.
and at the moment, i cant sit down and pen it all down.
but i finished reading "the wedding".
true romantic.
and tomorrow i might have the time to introduce some people i have never spoke about.
now i want to catch memoirs of a geisha.
its just fascinating, i never got bored of it.
one bit.
watched it so many times and i am going to watch it again.

i am happy. no i am REAL happy.

i played pool with ganesh.

there was the whole "this and that" about not asking me out and when he finally did,
the surprise was pretty surprising.
we played pool, me - playing after almost 6 to 8 months.
and damn, the first round didnt start off good.
in total, we played 10 frames.
of which, i potted the black ball twice.
and lost 7 frames all missing one to three balls.
the highlight had to be, no doubt sucking so bad,
i won one round.
and that was the best round.
he broke the rack.
i "sau que" the whole game after that.
so the round i won was a good round.
i helped him pot a ball since his balls were stagnant on the table.

it was nice playing pool after *let me exaggerate* YEARS!

beneficial/productive. i cant do it.

i was thinking i have a month off and i dont know what to do.

so the plan was to do something beneficial.

and my parents plan was for me to go to work with them.

which lets just put it this way, i need something more challenging than picking up calls.

hang that now.

so this whole productive/beneficial thing isnt working out.

i mean okay.

things i must do.

1) clean my room; which includes my wardrobe, bookshelf, study table.

and then i was thinking of getting the writings off my wall.

sick of looking at it. no really i am.

2) meet up with whoever i can.

and maybe it can work out if someone plans it.

3) continue reading my storybook, the wedding.

and finish it asap! then get another book asap too.

......thats about all thats a MUST for me

so hopefully this beneficial/productive thing works.

and lent is coming.

oh i must say.

i was on the way to the office and i saw a car sticker.

it reads, "i am not religious, i just love jesus"

then its going to be a vegetarian valentines day. who cares!

so updato will come about my beneficial/productive month.

but for now, i need to get off my PJ's cos its already afternoon. (:

free planting of kisses on my cheeks.

i shut my eyes to enjoy the moment.

;)

weekenders - so syiok!

foundation in communication is over.
halelujiah! (:

enough about that.

friday luncheon in college was one heck of it.
pictures that speaks.

enough about that.

girls night out on friday was ze blast.

i played miss DJ.

and did a scratch that turned nightmare.

but all hell broke and it was super blast off!

enough about that.

i am happy.