weird.

it has been weird. talking about the on goings in my life at this very moment. i feel God is talking to me, i mean telling me stuff but then again there is no one around me that i feel comfortable talking my problems too. i hope i wont burst one day. but anyhoo, this is weird. i mean the whole thing.

so what is it that gives me the power (i'd like to use this word) to be firm and not think of working other wise around the clock? what is it? i mean there could be two possibilities. the first i would say is EGO. yeah, ego talking. the whole ego bubble and all that. the second would be just plain FED UP. putting these two together, ego and fed up would form another possibilty. aha! maybe that is it. but looking at a 100% scale, i would say that it would be about 90% fed up and that 10% or so ego.

today has not been a real challenge. as compared to yesterday. but im hoping for only the best because i believe i deserve it. it has come to the point that i personally think i dont deserve this. i feel i deserve way better than this.

it is funny how i dont have problems in my life. well, counting the one outstanding thing that has been a problem for the past 2 years or so in my life. i mean - my family is great, yea the hiccups with the granny but still we're tight. my friends are fine, not a problem to me and its just great having them in my life. my studies, well i've got to say that i am doing okay and it has been going so far so good. so then what can be the problem in my life? well... there wouldnt be enough characters IF i even try to begin

i wonder what is instore for me tomorrow, thats when i wake up on my purple sheets. i always love a brand new day. i love waking up and knowing so many things. that i am alive. that its morning. that my eyes wasnt strained. but i am scared to be frank, im afraid tomorrow wouldnt be the day.

it has been pretty quiet. definitely everyone in the house is fast asleep. these days im always the last to bed. well guessing there's just too much of crap up in the attic of my brain. brain cells still alive no doubt. struggling but kicking for sure.

so i was listening to the winner takes it all. and the loser standing small. its funny how things go haywire when you least expect it too. its funny when you think otherwise and something else happens instead.

talking about perfect. im losing out on it. it might seem confusing, what am i saying? what do i mean? what is this about? who? which guy? which girl? who? me? you? him?

but thats how fast my brain is working at this hour and even when i close my eyes, it runs like a meter and it scares me till i wake up the next day. and still the winner takes it all. how unfair.

p/s: can you tell me a joke? ...or you wouldnt want to hear mine

jimmy, shining like a black star.

and so when was the last i said i gave jimmy a bath?
a month plus ago? and today, he is finally looking pretty again.
my nail colour is chipped, but jimmy looks good.
so it was a team work today.
mummy love, kor kor love and me.
the power of three gave jimmy a good bath.

i must say, i am good at this.
i meant keeping to my word.

p/s: a foot reflex in no time with the power of three! :)

hello, is it me you're looking for?

it creeps me out.
did someone jinx me?
it was going fine, i thought.
and now, its going down.
its going out.
its out.

pathetic.

how unfair does it feel when you wish someone a good weekend and yours turn out like complete utter bullshit?

how do i even begin to brainwash myself and say everything happens for a reason?

how pathetic.

anyway on a happy note.
im going to occupy myself today.

and did you know that i am a well?
bet you didnt.

dear so and so.

i have been so extremely busy.
carnival is over, next up.
assignments, presentations, presentations, assignments.
can you guys line up?
its starting to annoy!

and yeah havent found time.
mr. time, spare me a few minutes!
this is going haywire.
and i am waiting for third week of november.
its called enjoy......

p.s: and i call it mind fcuk.

follow these simple steps, listen, im talking!

now now...
step 1: click to ENLARGE.
step 2: check it out, read to be precise, do not SCAN.
step 3: inform your FRIENDS, and the jing bang.
step 4: see you on SATURDAY!


simple isnt it?
just repeat step 3 and follow step 4.

yours truly,
the project manager

JIMMY!!!!!!!!

JIMMY IS DIRTY.
SUPER DUPER DIRTY.
ANY SEXY MAMA WHO WANTS TO GIVE JIMMY JIMS A NICE BATH?
PLEASE SAY I DO.

p/s: no time.

Gah, gajah! *laughs*

i removed my gel tips.
nails are short and nah, not that fugs as before
..the last time i removed by tips.

my toe-toes are bright orange.
yum, like smarties!
big and small small smarties. :)

mama bought me a pair of guess heels.
mustard yellow, nice.
though the price was ridiculous,...
no comments.

i am pretty annoyed now.
so it calls for me to get off the comp.
tata.

p/s: i stupidly bought powerless brown contacts and now i thank god for my natural eye colour.

yup, ass was super itchy when the car was parked in front of england optical.
i thought why not, its almost 3 years since i wore coloured eyes. gah!

where is your heart?

i have been extremely busy.
and thinking about it, i wonder with what....
assignments?
boyfriend?
lepaks? hahaha

no time for myself.
i need a massage.
not the china girl who will press my back and neck till i go "ooh ahh, ouch!"
i need the balinese lady, with oil that will massage me till i fall off to sleep.

p/s: i cooked the other night for my family and boyfriend. not bad a cooker. ;)