@ the lewis' residence

back in PJ. [petaling jaya, not pyjamas]
mmm, feels good to be with my family.
and tomorrow, school begins.

here's a list.
*in brackets: inner voice

1. i am not ready for school. [of course, who is? can we extend summer! ]
2. i have not gotten my stationary and notebook. [i hate the feeling, i need it all new.]
3. i have a new pencil case. [tweeeety bird it is, kid]
4. i printed out monday's subject course material. [yay me, but now i need to read it. damnation]
5. i know my lecturer's name. [yahoo, it counts!]
6. i have not read what the course is about. [i should do it soon and not procrastinate.]
7. i printed out my timetable though i have not made it into a fancy one. [at least i am not lost tomorrow when dealing with tutorial times.]
8. i also printed out the course's and lecturer's name because i dont know who is what. [yay, before i look stupid in class, i am prepared]
9. i am still not ready for school. [can i not go?]
10. class is at 8am. [joy!]

DONE!

i will tell you peasants all about my vacation soon. alright mate??

trust. again

trust in the Lord, lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and He will make your path straight. :)

luckily.

the past - is something to be chucked into a big black box and thrown into the sea so that it sails to another continent therefore no one ever speak or hear of it.

continent - so that someone else gets to pick it up and learn from mistakes made by others.

mistakes - everyone learns BUT from mistakes made by themselves?

i don't think so.

p.s. i am a broke girl. =/

irene needs a favour.

alright so i have been wondering, who actually reads my rubbish. i mean, its been awhile since i kept tab of people reading it. i used to check IP addresses and what not. but these days i find simple pleasure from blogging. its like my diary, the one i used to have when i was thirteen. difference here is, people actually get to read it. haha, not that secretive anymore.

so.. to the point.

can my readers actually drop me a line in the comment box? pretty please with cherries on the top, mmm... would really appreciate it. and no, im not going to stop blogging once i find out i have no followers. it would just be nice to know, you get what i mean?

my stalkers, if you're shy, no worries. :)

three reasons why people read my blog.

1. you are a friend and you love me so you want to know the story of my life
2. you are not a friend but sibuk want to know what's going on in my life [yes, there are people like that]
3. you like my essence of good nonsense.

times up. pick a number and ahead in the comment box. (:

thanks folks!

p.s. i don't really need to know, but sibuk lah! BUT again... -_-

learn. and act.

teach me, please.

how to be patient, how to control my anger, how to be nice, how to pretend.

word of the day: PRETEND.

for the longest time i've known, i suck at pretending. and my facial expression gives it all away. when i am really happy, i laugh with my mouth open so wide that you can even see those nasty tonsils dangling. when i am really angry, i sulk with my mouth 'senget' that you can only see a dropped jaw and eyes that just wants to squeeze the juice out of you.

i am bad at pretending.

p.s. i need to learn. she says, im only pretending. i said, im sorry i cant.

hold on.

post on the holiday will be up when i am home. :)

for now, i have an issue with planning ahead and time.

a real big issue.

planning ahead? it is good i must say but sometimes it gets twisted and i secretly wish i did not plan ahead. sucks to be me. i wish i did not plan this holiday. yeah, i let the cat out of the bag.

time? i secretly wished that 'time' and i were friends. that way, i could tell him that i would like him to be rewinded and fast forwarded every now and then, as and when i like. yeah, i let the cat out of the bag, again.

hold on.

i am enjoying myself, of course i am. :)

BUT..... ah, again i go with this

p.s. i don't want school to begin. time baby, please slow down.

damn girl!

so i have a memory problem, i dont know why.

thing is, i highly doubt that by the time i get back, i would be able to recollect every thing i did, every place i went to, every hot hunk i had eyes on [yeah right], and of course the last but not the least, all the food i had my hands on.

mama told me to come home a little lighter.

IMPOSSIBLE!

heavier is. (:

p.s. out of my 'things to do in australia' list, we managed to do one. YAY!

a little off.direction

it is, i must say...

amazing how news fly to you, even when you're down under. :)

amazing how you don't have to find news, it always finds you.

i learnt in school...

when a dog bites a man, its not news.

but when a man bites a dog, that is news.

hello brisbane. :)

im here.

and yes, will be back on the 28th of february. :)

perhaps with my 10 days update too.

as for now, i have a new found love, besides thomas sabo.

hi pandora! :P

p.s. it was a really uncomfortable chair BUT all is well, i slept for 3 hours.

shhh,...say hello guli

i have a secret.
that makes me happy.
tell you when i can.

psst, 9 more hours to go.
goodbye for now.

p.s. my efelant shall be named guli. his eyes so big. and now my bubu has a friend.

yay!

a new year, a new look.

what say you?

i am finally allowing you to comment. :)

your eyes should be on my words, not on the layout.
though it counts, im better at the former.

i am no longer bringing you good nonsense.

i bring to you the essence of all nonsense.
readable.
understandable.
doable.

WHAT?

its like God is secretly listening to my heart.

i like reading over and over again, yearp my ramblings i mean.

it is late, i should sleep and wake up to a brand new spanking day.

p.s. i want to go shark cage swimming and i also want to play with seals.

trust

i have an issue with trusting people.
i wish i didnt have a problem like this.

i find it hard to trust men.
bite me.

i need to learn how to trust again.
this is eating me up.

irene should get a life. :D
all clap!

no buts. =)

sometimes i wish my mind and hand would coordinate so that i can rant what i really feel, but it just cant. and i think its better this way....

last night i was watching 90210, S2E11. and just a few minutes before it could end, it just died on me. ya, it should couldnt play, so basically download failed. and because i was so kan cheong [excited] to know what happen, i made sure i knew. thats because when i want something, i get it. learnt how to download tv shows [i know pretty ulu when it comes to things like this because i have it all ready on kor kor's ps3]. and thanks to kor kor. i downloaded it again and the next episode as well. made sure i forced start it so that i would be able to watch it before i leave*. and tonight since kor kor is in, i couldnt watch it on his big tv, but i still wanted to know what happened and you know desperate people cant be fussy. so i had to resort to my lappie. which went well because i just wanted to know so badly what happened. anyhoo, now i can leave in peace knowing what happened. it looks like i will be back to one tree hill after this. and then i should perhaps begin melrose place or how i met your mama.

anyhoo, school is starting. and its my final year. how time flies. :)

enough.

p.s. i miss having a best friend but i will never want to have another one again. mad fest.

BUT again.. irene oh irene

i just want to break free, GOD knows

regret?

in my opinion, in life, we should not, more like never regret. whats the point of doing something or not doing it and then regretting? i mean, i think facing the repercussions and moving on with life is the best thing to do. well what can i say?

....but once in a while, shit happens, and eventually, you regret.

see, BUT again. -_-

p.s. walking away is a solution to nothing but walking away is what people do.

i hate walking away, i prefer trashing it out and solving it, thats why when someone walks away, i hate it all the same. face it. face it. something not a lot of people can do. if it makes you sleep tonight..... then walk away

irene needs too..

1. lose weight
2. plan ahead
3. be punctual

and then comes the other part. the one we like better...

irene wants a new....

1. bag
2. pair of flap flips
3. camera
4. hair do

DONE!

p.s. we be flying high. (:

that girl.

i was walking in the mall, and the usual, observing everyone. and then i saw a couple, and the girl had a very sour sad angry long face. of course everyone would know something went wrong because the guy was walking ahead. and she behind.

relating to it...

it was like looking at myself. and questioning..

that sour long angry face, i do it all the time. :)

SO....

why do men walk so fast? i mean "on the move" is not the answer. why cant we stroll the mall instead?

why do men walk ahead? showing that they play the 'king' card does not matter at all. i mean we talk who dominates what?

okay..to sum up. :D

men are like puppets, and women the puppet controller.

surprisingly. suprisingly.

i have a huge problem with spelling. =X

so now you know..

and my nails are still lasting, surprisingly. its always chipped by the third day. of course it has to last, i paid rm98 for mani and pedi. i tell you these chinese people really know how to squeeze every ringgit out of you. like me. :)

its tuesday, summer is here!

kung see fat chai.

and its been sleep, eat and gamble.

win money lose money win money lose money and no win no lose.
but now i won. :D hopefully to convert to another 100AUD.

eating like a pig.
sleeping like a pig.
gambling like a ... no comments

p.s. few more days.

again, random

while driving and stuck in a jam, ah... alone and suddenly didnt feel like talking to anyone seemed like a brilliant and good idea. so many things came crashing my mind...again

trying to recall.

topics.

1. toilet for the rich
2. ways to consider a friend
3. itchy fingers + facial = my face

before i begin, lets not name names. :)

so we were at the mall, and the idea of using the 'premium toilet' came up. yeah the rm5 one. yea, i wouldnt pay either. after all, what so great? a toilet bowl made out of gold for my bum? nah, i will tell you since i have experienced it now. and NO, i did not pay rm5 for it. yea the big difference between the toilets for the rich and the usual cheapskate toilet is that in the richmans toilet, you get a hand towel and also hand lotion. eh come one, thats a big thing you know. so if you are a member of so and so store, or if you have spent rm100 in a single receipt or IF YOU HAVE A PLATINUM CREDIT CARD...you get to use the toilet for the rich. agh. come on, get a life. and one card or receipt permits one person. there you go again, so hence the platinum card cant allow all three girls to enter the toilet, so what so big about allowing only platinum card holders? honestly, damn dumb.

moving on...on a whole different topic altogether

i remember the passing of my late kong kong. and of course, i was with the family that i did not send the message out to anyone but my close friends. and guess what, the person that i once called 'best friend' didnt even turn up. and so we talk about the extent friends go for each other. well feng shui said dont go to funeral houses, so you dont. i was being sarcastic there. but yes, i guess i am being welcomed by reality and life. the friends that you wish stuck by wont, the friends that you least expect does. the friends that you said they'd do the extreme for you, wont in the end. feng shui said so. but yes, to what extend would you go for a friend? i think i would go the extent. but i know i have gone more than what we expected. well what else is there to say anyway?

finally..that was pretty deng right wasnt it

if you have seen me lately, the first thing you would or might ask without even meaning would be "what happened to your face?". sorry people, facial did it and i am emotional. ha! funny how only one cheek is affected and while on the bed before facial, i specifically told her, "dont extract a lot, i celebrate chinese new year". mmm, like that mattered. now my face looks rather horrible. and its been awhile since i looked this ugly. it is okay, shit happens. so eat it up. and yes for chinese new year, i would have a one sided retarded pose, showing off my flawless dimpled cheek. yearp, vain vain me.

p.s. today has been a tumble tossed and turn day but a good day no less. :)

the falling-in-love feeling

who would say that the feeling is gah. of course the feeling of 1000 butterflies crashing your stomach walls till you feel faint, and the stars spinning around till you follow the stars round and the smile that widdens till your eyes shut .... is great but it never stays

i seem to use the word 'but' a lot in my life. as much as i am optimistic, its good to sometimes weigh out unforseen circumstances right? better ready than sorry no? i put a picket fence all around myself so that no boogie man can boss my life [boogie man conotes ugly, yes partially men].

my mama told me that in my life i should only wear a wedding gown once. so like how you play doctor doctor or teacher teacher [the games we used to play when we ran out of games], there is no marry marry before marriage. they call it pantang. what can i say, old folks dont die. they live. :)

and so remember that bag that i have been having an eye on? yea, checked it out and no it wasnt to my surprise at all. they dont have it here, and singapore, and australia and places that i can reach. yea, hong kong perhaps? :s and right now i have a friend there but i am telling myself that at this point in time, a new bag is not what i need. okay looks like i really suck at persuading myself otherwise. over it.

alright folks, my time is up. see i dont know if i have mentioned this before but i am easily depressed when i am on the net, yeah weirdo i know. but if i am searching or researching something, its good to go. otherwise... i become depressed. T_T

p.s. emoticons are changing.

from :) to -_- to :p to =/

when im on the road

my mind wanders far off, that when i catch it back and put my mind in my head, i forget half of the things that i actually thought about. and then it slips through my fingers, i cannot remember what i wanted to post. shit happens....

there is a place where i find happiness, where i can be myself, laugh and talk, be stupid but put a front so that nobody knows who i am. and a place where i can drive too, and just be neutral. yup, its gillin printers.

chinese new year is coming, and i take pride in saying i am chinese. :D

i remember this chinese song i was thought in kindie.
gong xi gong xi gong xi ni yah! (repeat)

p.s. i really forgot what the topic was.

mood: affected

sometimes when you try not to get affected by what nasty things people say about you, you eventually do. and its a fact, you actually get hurt.

ah, maybe not you. but yes i was hurt, affected and its still on my mind. those words that pierced, pretty deep i must say. so heck it. get over it, irene!

the weather i tell you, has been scorching and heating me up. i cannot take it.

count down: 8 days.

oh oh,...im sweating already. i need to bathe before i.....

case: hopeless

today has been a rather depressing day. i wonder whats the meaning of perserverance because i dont see an end result. then again, maybe an end result is not the outcome of perseverance, maybe it just makes you a better person. or maybe it doesnt. maybe its a test to see how long it would last. but honestly, this test isnt funny to me. i feel and think that i have persevered a lot. maybe quite a bit to you, but heck what i have been doing is persevering all through. all through. and its aching me to see that nothing good is happening. actually then again, i dont want a prize trophy, i dont want to be the star, limelight, whatever. i just want to be happy. is that so hard to ask. so what have i been persevering for? to see the ugliest side of you? its like im talking to somebody who has been possesed. i am sick and tired. the more i say i am done with, the more i face you. can somebody explain to me perseverance? or show me at least. because i am at the verge of giving up. or rather, i have given up all i ever had, hope, love, whatever - on you.

look.what.i.found

i have an eye on this. ;)

a serious eye.

can you save my life?

i am at a point in my life...i dont know if the decision made is right, then again, i think i have yet to come up with a firm, FIRM decision. i am sick of the kids game we play, suddenly it does not feel like a kids fun club anymore.

finally, done with 90210 season 1. and yes, finally. after my non stop work holiday work and the catching up with friends in between. :) now its time for 90210 season 2.

p.s. i saw something i like. :D

weird ay?

hi everybody who reads my blog. :)

my password for a few accounts online is my birth certificate number with additional numerics.dont you think its weird? i actually do remember my birth cert number. :) now, do you?

okay so ever since ever.

wait, it goes like work-holiday-work, the scorching sun which hasnt been my friend has made me tan. so yearp, instead of the sun kiss tan [ya, the usual], i am now a fried chicken when you take me out a little later than the time when i look golden. so basically, im not that tan but still...

anyway i have yet to update about my promoter job. soon it is. :P and for now, im on a role....

p.s. im feeling happy.

argh. damnation.

i wish i could ramble on about work and holiday but my hands, brain and body is not allowing me too. i just feel the need to lay on my bed and close eyes shut and just wake up to a brand new day. so by now you should know work wasnt the best, and im saving it all in. when i have the time to blow, i definitely will.

p.s. mood just spoiled.

hi world. im back, for now.

three days work.

two days holiday.

p.s. i have 100 AUD now. :)