what if?

you know...with everyone spamming facebook with their pictures, particularly friends that are abroad, i sometimes wished what if i went abroad too. the fun i would have, the home sick moments i would have to surpass, the happy moments with friends, etc.

so what if i went abroad?

and i say, "you will change when you go to a white man's country"

irene, snap back to reality.

you wont be going abroad to study anytime soon, or rather never. you complete your degree this year and you do not wish to further it. so thank god for the moments that you have with your family and friends in malaysia. above all, thank god for giving you the opportunity to be educated.

but still....but again. -_- what if i went abroad? would i be the same irene you've known?

p.s. snap back to assignments bah.

hope you like it baby.

three years plus. and counting

(:

i need a boost.er

somehow i dont have the ummph to work on my assignment.

what my body feels like doing is just plonking on the bed and sailing off to wonderland.

i need something sweet.

i need to move on.

realised that my entries have been so mundane. -_- and that is thanks to assignments that's draining my energy, taking up my time and making me boring. however, i am really looking forward to saturday.

oh and...i went to my new campus today. well done i must say as compared to what it was when i went there in february. it is making me have the campus feel i never had, sad to say. slack part, no shorts, no slippers, no t-shirts with obscene words into the lecture theatre. okay so i cant enter. =/

next week schedule smells something like this.

monday - media law presentation

tuesday - public relations II assignment 2 due

friday - media law assignment 2 due

p.s. i need a good massage, now. please.

my ten minutes of me time

so m.e time is here and then it is back to assignment.

nonsense i tell you.

so i thought to myself. if every morning i laugh at least one loud one, i will have a good rest of the day.

and it gives me a sense of joy knowing that i am loved. loved. loved.

the "hey, soul sister" song is in jimmy now. yahoo!

big smile

resemblance?

what say you?

come.on.irene

to do list.

find an outfit.
find the shoes.
settle guest list.
settle production stuff.

and also.....i need help
i know you are not keen on commenting because i do not have a chat box BUT can you give the soon-to-be-birthday-girl feedback?

to do: dye hair.
colour: black.
majority said: no.

please advice. :)

bored?

http://irenelewiswithipd.blogspot.com/

i really had an issue with publication and design.

faced it.

done it.

gah

picture uploaded from e72

READ AND LAUGH.

click to enlarge and read the first two bullshit.

i cant seem to sleep but this is reality.

lying on my bed, i remember what someone told me, that you were going to call me. and i have been waiting for that call. when are you going to call me? or is it never going to happen? i tried calling. sometimes reality stinks but this is reality, it will never be the same. i was talking to someone and i said that i knew a friend very well. then i realised i knew the person not too well because if i did, i would have known why i never got the call and why i am still waiting. never will it be the same but heck, i am waiting. AND I WILL WAIT. PERIOD.

detox.

it is good to get it out of your system. for some reason or another i like talking about shit. no, as in the real thing. kaka as some may call it. pangsai others would say and urgh urgh in baby language? hahahaha!

and for the record,...i feel relieved. :)

time is up. step one.

when researching.....

X facebook, msn and blogger.

the first 10-20 minutes thing

so everytime, before i get started on the assignments..i need to do something before that. aha, i think everyone does it. facebook, check mails, blog. and then comes the 'A' word. as of now, i dont feel stressed out but i know it will kick in, very soon. assignments are driving me up the wall. can you drive me down? damnation!

somehow..

i cant seem to focus, i cant seem to do my research and i cant seem to understand it.

but now..

i need to focus, i need to do my research and i need to understand it.

come on irene, come on, come on!

p.s. this is call my positive drive. leave me alone. (:

i had a title in mind, but i forgot.

when i drive, my mind roams freely. to be frank (NO, i am not frank) but frankly speaking, i dont quite like it because if i dont repeat it twice or key it down, it'd be out of my brain the moment i think of wanting to blog it, like now. bummer.

anyhoo, i am really getting sick and tired of being pulled aside during roadblocks. my skin colour that the cops often get mixed with annoys me when they try to chat me up. famous 'i want to chat irene up' questions...

"you orang apa?"

"irene jessica? name apa ni?"

"sudah kahwin?"

"masih belajar ke kerja?"

"umur berapa?"

and to top the charts....

"you bukan orang melayu?"

this year, roadblocks in PJ has top the charts too and without fail, i think i only got through 1 out of 5 roadblocks! it amazes me how i am not at fault, yet they still pull me over. and when they see my license and IC, they lagi want to know what the hell i am. =/ it is tiring.

on a better note, i had a good day out, driving to anywhere in malacca. good dose of happy.

p.s. i am in a dilemma* because i am on a budget*. [now pronounce the * in a unique way and laugh it off] -___-

radiant blue

saturday night

twas a good night, and a good day of course. :)

i am supposed to be asleep, but i cant seem to fall off. maybe if i get off my lappie, i would be able too. BUT, the air con is down, and the fan running at number 5 is still not good enough. i want to open the window, but im a scaddy.cat. after boogie man see me sleep. haha!

anyhoo, urrm.....i seem to be a cool cat, but at the back of my head its running... 2 assignments and 1 presentation due first week of May, 1 assignment due on my birthday. JOY! double celebration so said my lecturer, 1) celebrate the handing in of the assignment and 2) celebrate my birthday. -_- funny

okay i need to come up with my guest list and then i am off to sleep. and i would post my birthday card when i have given it out. till then, wait!

p.s. before the party...... comes first week of May. hahahahahahah

re.collection

i was just reading my past post. infact i find joy reading it. and the end of last year was mainly a stage in my life that i was trying to cope with. reading back, i remember how emotionally torn apart i was, how i constantly couldn't get over that phase in my life and how i was just not ready to let go and move on. and that was because my best friend walked away from my life. that point was heart breaking, but i had help and support from so many people, family and friends mainly. but the greatest support and help i got was from me, myself. i must say i did a good job. i pulled through it. and though even till today i think about what has happened, i remember that phase in life that God helped me through. i often asked why did He do that to me, but now i know He walked me through it. and i dont blame Him, i dont blame anybody. i dont even blame myself. i learnt a lot through that period of time. but above all, i learnt to love and forgive.

goodnight world.

one for the week.

i had the worst day of the week.

worst.

couldn't have been worst.

it was the worst.

and sometimes i wish deaf selection was part of me. thing is, i scrutinize every word i hear, and it registers the way it does. i am just happy its past the clock and its friday.

tgif.

shall we go there? :)

but, why?

why do we say...

shut up
hurry up

i mean, i dont get why asking someone to keep quiet in a harsh manner is 'shut up' and it makes no sense if we say 'shut down' neither if we omit the word 'up'.

yeah, i just dont get why we put the word 'up' behind these two words.


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on a better/happier note,
i have found the venue for my event.
i am in the midst of getting my cards done.
i need to settle everything by this week.

i thought i had a theme, and was just clueless about a venue, but i forgot how fickle minded i am, that now with the venue, i am still contemplating about my theme. O.O

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p.s. i am going for the mamak mee-ah! musical tonight.

attempt.

it is good to try. and try.
i have been trying new things.

the attempt at waxing my pits - fail.
the attempt at waxing my pits - fail.

the attempt at fixing on my fake lashes - success!

on a more serious note.
the attempt of starting on my PR assignment due next month - succeeded!
its these little things that bring me lasting happiness.

i was driving home last night,..again my mind was trying its luck at chasing you.

................................

sometimes i wish you knew how i felt.
sometimes i wish you could explain.
sometimes i wish you just cared

suddenly/ who said?

the lack of updates is due to my busy schedule, and i tried asking myself "busy with what" since class is in the morning and is usually done by afternoon. no clue. but busy.

the spirit to ramble on has mellowed, and i tried asking myself "why?", yet no clue. but no mood.

anyway jokes.

she said, "good one"
he said, "bad two"

you're so lame..
no la, i can walk bah!

i cant stand the jam, then sit.

-_-

i have been laughing a lot, more than my prescribed dosage.

the drive to shit.

i call it shit aggravators.

starbucks coffee! [number one on the list]
eno! [but it makes me barf too]

working on my assignment in the media hub, i need to go home now! now means now!