traditional moments

the thing with holidays..

i just dont like the journey home.

perhentian, i am more than ready to see you.

i am trying to digest the conversation i had with my general manager.

you know the feeling... when something is stuck in your throat, you want to bring it out but you're controlling it and you're swallowing back.

i am now trying to burp. even without digesting.

"i see it in your face that you are capable of this"

monday ramblings

monday again. four weeks now and i am not even trying to get the hang of it, i already got it. no more fuss. let optimism spill over. its fine.

i spent saturday with mama - wax, nails and hair.

and we ran in heels to church in hopes of getting a place to sit 5 minutes before easter vigil. who were we kidding? we stood for 2 hours, me on four inches. -_-

funny moments. she was rambling on about a new top she bought that looked and had that 'old' feel. like a rag thrown on her. "/ gah!

lent is over, we had good Thai food for dinner on saturday and Portuguese food and porkie for Sunday lunch.

i want to go back for porkie pork pork food.

i was supposed to go for a foot reflex last night and i didn't. no comments. i am trying to save, i think.

done rambling. : )

looks are deceiving

idiots. i went down to the indian shop to takeaway the best milo [so i thought] and these two chinese were walking out of the shop, starring at me, and before they could even walk pass me one of them said in canto, "wah hou tai lup"

i gave them the longest jeling i could and kept myself contained. i was so mad i had to pick up the phone and express my mang feeling.

i dont look chinese, i hardly speak chinese, heck i am half chinese which only means i understand chinese!

damn it!

men i tell you.

fly a kite. take a bow honey.

i just had a good look at my fingernails.

damn they need a fix.

lets not even look at my toenails. -_-

i am in need of all things that would spoil me completely.

so spoil me?

strong.

family portrait - pink

Momma please stop cryin, I can’t stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn’t mean those nasty things you
said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain’t easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you’ll see
I don’t want love to destroy me like it has done
my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t
leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can’t stand the sound

Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don’t wanna go back to that place, but don’t have
no choice, no way
It ain’t easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don’t want love to destroy me like it did my
family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t
leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let’s play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally
I don’t wanna have to split the holidays
I don’t want two addresses
I don’t want a step-brother anyways
And I don’t want my mom to have to change her
last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)

Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Don't leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer
I’ll be so much better, I’ll tell my brother
Oh, I won’t spill the milk at dinner
I’ll be so much better, I’ll do everything right
I’ll be your little girl forever
I’ll go to sleep at night

inbox.

mika, owl city, bruno mars, cimorelli, maddi jane, andra and the backbone, man bai, pink, estranged have been keeping me pumped in the office.

in ten days, i will be off. perhentian besar, round 2.

menghitung hari

are we doing lunch? : ) i am waiting.

11 days

how time flies.

before you know it, its the weekend. before you know it again, its monday. "/

boring. and if this is what life is...then kill time.

the fool is not foolish.

i once said i would wait. i was listening to let it be.

#there will be answer, let it be#

i just realised how i have forgotten about waiting and have moved on, completely.
the question mark remains but it is pocket size.

who's that

i bought something from mudah.my
first time ever.
nothing for myself, office related.
: )

i love the way i bargain. not bad at all, with a touch of malay words exchanged.

HA!

click to enlarge and laugh.

mm, but this was written one year ago.

it was just the start, no?

countdown to 22.

with age comes a lot of things.

a month to my birthday. i have no plans whatsoever but i am excited. -_- i feel pathetic at times but really, more than pathetic is irene excited. do you see how easy it is to make me happy? yea, just remind me that i am turning 22.

one year ago, i remember having a load of assignments in hand but at the same time trying to work out a party plan. this year, no such nonsense. reflecting, my 21st party was amazing! i know right, complimenting my own party but heck, it was!

so perhaps for the next weeks to come, i should do all the things i want before i turn 22. so that i wont say, "i should have done it when i was 21".

above all, i am really full of myself. who was i kidding. the lewis'?

amazing news.

for five years i take arcoxia 90mg every month without fail. to keep me sane, walking and happy during that time of the month when i feel ugly, fat and emotional.

this month, aunty rose as mentioned had no manners and just walked in. i was at work with nothing. no killers no liners.

and for the first time.. i did not take no medicine to keep alive.

cramps came but it was not the massive ones that would make me leave everything i was doing to go home and sleep.

i did kegels and prayed.

woah, it works!

i am proud of myself.

3weeks&counting

i have been busy.

work and wyd matters. social life and my time.

i am a juggler. and only practice makes perfect.

love endures all things

i saw this best friends picture stand in a shop and i laughed to myself. i remember the story cocked up by my bitches because i quote them "we are on your side".

one of the funny things they said was, "irene no longer believes in best friends". the only problem here was, they lied. or maybe they were right but they said in a wrong context!

-_-

still ♥ them no less.

and when some friends try and stand up for you... they make it buttery. they make it funny! and words greased for the year and the year to come!

Note: the name ‘bitches’ were given by themselves.

happy weekend folks!

TGIF

hello 7

aunty rose is a rude lady!

you know, she usually knocks and today she just walked in.

sk ht je jln. mnymph.

i ♥ the kebaya girl.

april fooled me.

first day of work and it really didn't start the way it should have.

i got in the car, switched on the radio and my two happy songs were on, back to back.

amazing how God listens. it gives me the drive to want to listen too.

working class begins.