updating..

apparently my blog has been rather boring of late. "/ so says an avid reader of mine. boo hoo! no inspiration to write actually.

my life has been drama-less. happiness to an extent.

tomorrow the euro backpackers are meeting up to discuss the trip. finally we are!

still at samba, dance is tonight. i just realized i have been paying for everything to do with dance - shoes and classes. *proud smile*

i need to start my period keeping book again. this handphone thing is not working, 1) i forget to note it down on the calendar, 2) i have changed so many phones

and so its been a month now since i found out about something rather nasty that was going on without my knowledge. how time flies.

i have been thinking about diving. i want to go diving again! and really if all else fails, i would want to take diving to a next level.

i have a particular line in all my happy songs that i like.

i had tuna bread for lunch, for once lunch was in the office. i tell you, aunty rose is temperamental. sot ka liao.

inner peace.

TGIF and some ramblings

today i wore red lipstick to work, and everyone had something to say. "fuuyooo, lawa nye u today", "wah!", "you look nice in red lipstick", "looks like the chinese red", "suits you totally", "it doesnt really suit your skin tone", "you look really nice". nice to get some attention, and for once bobo grandes didn't shy away. :))

this weekend is looking very very busy, no parties for irene because saturday and sunday is early morning, im not talking 9am or 10am here, im talking 7am! i dont even wake up at 7am for work. -_- and for the glory of God, i'd be obedient. :D

tomorrow we are going to an orang asli settlement as part of the avilaians's outreach for world youth day. and the day after we are having coffee morning to raise funds for world youth day, singing for 11.30am mass and chaperoning the kids for the movie screening kungfu panda 2 that we have organised to raise funds world youth day. and a wedding reception to attend at night.

happy weekenders everybody!

first for something.

i like to recap. and so two weeks ago, it was my birthday. i woke up and was getting ready for work when i hear kor kor's friends at his door. nothing new, kor kor was over hung that he gave me 500rm for my birthday since he was going to kk on the same day. and at work, initially no one really knew it was my birthday. something different since in school everyone would make a hoohaa. and after lunch, they celebrated my birthday with a super sweet cake and i even got an ang pow from my boss. sweet. after work, mama and i went down to wallis and got the dress i was eyeing. we had a good chat over spanish dinner and had a good hot stone massage after. the night started when i rushed home to get all ready and we headed for changkat. it was baan 26, werners and out. the ride home was not the same, for the first time my estimation skills were off. way off that jimmy got dirty and smelly. and the paper bag i was given was solid, nothing leaked after a whole ride of barfing non stop, phew. i woke up the next morning in the new dress and make up intact, just a little off. my 22 - something different no?

thank you to all the beautiful people for making my birthday a good day and night.

thank you for all the birthday wishes on my facebook wall, SMS and calls.

thank you for the pretty presents that made me smile and still makes me smile.

and i never got the 200rm from kor kor. but thats okay.

this post, better late than never? : )

6 years on

i did not burn the straw and my hair.

: )

22 and wise.

believe you me

nonsensical

today is three weeks. and three weeks ago, i was told something that broke my heart.

how time flies and wounds don't dry.

then why cant i?

1. i am happy because i have a job and i am doing something in life and i am earning money
2. i am happy because i serve in church and i enjoy it and it feels great doing His work
3. i am happy because i have a family that loves me for all that i am, what i have been, and what i plan to be
4. i am happy because i am finally going for dance classes
5. i am happy because i was given a car and i do not depend on anybody
6. i am happy because i live a comfortable life, nothing too fancy just average
7. i am happy because i have a few friends that i can count on
8. i am happy because i got my scuba diving license
9. i am happy because i am sponsoring a child in Myanmar and i outreach to Myanmar refugees in Malaysia
10. i am happy because i am the coordinator for World Youth Day 2011 and going for WYD11
11. i am happy because i have Jesus in me

i took this.

tell me it was the moment.

tell me i am good.

how time gives you no reason

i remember playing guitar hero and singing the middle by jimmy eat world.

i remember all the late nights we did absolutely nothing.

i remember ganja and nasi lemak and shisha.

i miss the boys. :(

either or?

either toy watch jelly looped or bras, shoes and bags.

and this has always been my problem. to buy one expensive or a few cheaper?

a sucker for watches. : )

:(

whycantibreathe

wheneverithinkaboutyou

please.

back to work. no shit.

i wished there was a button on me that could deflate my assets, mainly bobo grandes. not that i am unhappy with them, but sometimes it could save me the embarrassment. for instance, like today, three ladies going out for lunch and on the way back to the office with my colleague, general manager and myself, these bunch of school kids were walking our way and the last boy actually yelled "wah besarnya". fact is i couldn't hide anything, my face or myself. and really it wasn't a plunging neckline at all, just a white blouse.

so how about coffee irene?

how reality stings

a conversation with kor kor on bbm.

kor: if 30 of ur friends who came for your bday calls you on ur bday to wish you i'll give u 200 ringgit.

me: lols. i highly doubt, sms maybe.

kor: haha, u know it

me: lol. [but really i meant ouch!]

kor: 16k to make these ppl happy and forget

me: lol [but again i meant ouch!]. we'll see first la. don't be too quick to judge.

stings doesn't it? and i am clouded by all things pretty.

hi may 13.

everyone seems to be asking me whats going on this friday. and really i wish i could tell them a gala. i seem to be disappointing people with my answer - no plans.

thinking back, i have been really fortunate to have people plan my past birthdays and given the opportunity to plan my twenty first birthday last year without a budget, i must say i was fortunate.

this year, and i have no plans. really nada. and i saw this really pretty dress from wallis, i think it shall be my birthday present with my very first pay cheque.

mama was so nice, she said she would get me a toy watch for my birthday. well kor had the idea of getting her a toy watch for mama's day but i knew better that she wouldn't use it. and then she says she would get it for me instead. my, she knows my love for watches.

and my friends know my new love for pandora. additions after another. a money bag charm because i am starting to earn my own money now and a safety chain so my charms don't roll out. thank you angels.

oh and i still have a present unopened because i can only open it on my birthday. i feel the love. i do after all my wasted tears. : )

tiada lagi.

muchas gracias

happiness.

receiving early birthday presents, i feel the love.

i had it.

lead me to the cross

hello may.

the week did not start out well. i am still trying to hold everything in and brave myself. the tears are there, just one hard blink and i'd banjir the room but little blinks are making it stay in. more than anything i need strength.

i believe you can be a friend, but don't do things behind my back.

i believe you can be a friend, but don't tell me it wasn't your fault.

i believe you can be a friend, but don't lie over and over again to me.

i believe this whole thing isn't worth my tears.

i passed the dutch and i know i am on the right track.

come on irene!

linda lewis.

even though mama and i would never win a look alike contest, we're still alike, in so many other ways. i love my mama. and really i cant describe in words how much i love her.

as wide as the ocean, as deep as the sea - mama, i love you.

tomorrow please come

romeo save me..

i just haven't met you yet

i feel like i've lost a big part of me again. yes, again. i suddenly feel like its me against the world because i dont know who i can trust, who i can rely on, and even who i can cry to. everything is clouding my mind.

i dont know how to trust anymore but its the same thing all over again, i am moving on.

my search is never ending. can you be the reason i end my quest?

and really the best of friends you make in your life comes from school and the girls you used to bathe with, have sleep over parties, play barbie dolls and even have the nastiest times with. and the friends that i made after school, i am starting to doubt whether they are even friends after all.

but above all, i have a friend that doesnt fail me and he rocks my socks.

p.s. irene, note to self - fei-Ts are around. : )

the dive getaway

sybil and i were game for another dive trip after we became PADI open water divers. and the planning begun three weeks ago when everything went hoo-la-ba-loo because there were no rooms and then no affordable rooms. and when the room problem was settled, yes we settled for a dorm, it was a breeze, we got the bus tickets and since we were pretty familiar with the rest, we just waited patiently for the day to come.

days approaching friday [the day i was going to leave for perhentian] was topsy turvy with work and all the in betweens. mood was lost completely. a cry the night before just made things go down and all i did on friday morning was take out a bunch of clothes for kakak to help me fold. and off i went to office. i left the office close to 8pm and i did brisk walk to the car finally feeling some excitement. i got home fast, charged at the balance or barely left overs of devil curry and dashed to pack my stuff. i was craving for mc donald's and so abang got me a set when he came to pick us up.

we left the house ten past nine? ate the soggy fries in the car and walked down with the coke and left the fillet in the car. bummer. reaching early, the bus station was a mad fest - the noise, the air, the smoke, the people, the smell. hopped onto the bus and lets cut the story short, we slept through out, and reached there five to 8. got off the bus, saw the same boat taxi lady. we got onto the 8am boat. whoopedoooo!

the rest of my story - TBC, continued : )